A Visit That Changed It All (Jake Paul)

Luna's POV

We all got into our swimsuits and head for the beach. I made sure to cover myself in sunscreen constantly because I liked my complexion the way it was. The boys had this weird tent but that was made for the beach that I helped set up. Once done I ran for the water. It was cold at first but I didn't care I loved the water. I soon felt strong arms behind me and turned to see that it was Jake. He carried me deeper into the water which was fun until he let go and every five seconds I was scared something touched my foot. He took me back into his arms and brought us back to the tent.

 As we made our way there we saw Logan failing at flirting and we just both laughed. We both just laid on our backs in the tent enjoy each others company. His hand was just on his chest so I intertwined it with mine. 

"So I realized I don't know much about you Luna" he said suddenly.

"Well, what do you want to know?"

"Anything you want to tell me"

"Well, My name is Luna Ann Narz, I'm 18, my favorite color is pink, I have a genetic mutation that causes my eyes to be purple among other things, I like being in the water, I want a yorkipoo, and tomorrow I'm making a video that could change my life."

"I don't suppose you want to talk about the video do you?"

"Its something that I'm doing to make people aware of something that exist and I don't know if people are gonna accept that of me. I've talked to an organization that said if I make that video they will help it spread."

"Well, I'm excited for you then" he said squeezing my hand to try to give me some reassurance. 

"Thanks" I said.

~Next Day~ (I'm inpatient and really want to write this part nothing happened after the beach and she slept in her own bed)

Today was the day I was gonna tell not only the world but my family something I had been hiding. I got ready set up the camera and everything. I heard a knock on my door and it opened to reveal Gilinsky. I went up and hugged him tightly. 

"I'm so scared" I said trying to not cry.

"I know but it's going to be okay. I texted your brother and as you said him and your mom were together so you can tell them together. Ready?"

"I guess"

"I'll be right here behind the camera and if you need me just tell me okay?" 

"Okay" I said as he kissed my forehead.

"Good Day Estrellas, hope you are having a lovely day. Todays video is going to be a bit different. In case you didn't read the title its "I have a secret..." which I'm going to be sharing today" I said inhaling and exhaling deeply.

"This is something that only two people know and its that I'm pansexual" I said starting to tear up.

"I know a lot of you may not know what that is and thats okay its why I'm making this video. Pansexual is when you are attracted to a person not because of gender just of who they are. And no it is not the same as bisexual because I did think thats what I was for so long. I've thought I was gay, straight, and bisexual but I'm not any of those I am pansexual. It feels so good to admit what I've been hiding for so long. I've been so scared because I know what people think. They think that because you are pan you are a savage or someone who just wants attention or just wants to sound interesting. Truth be told I've wished that I was straight because then I wouldn't have to always hide who I am. It might seem little to some but this is something so big to me." I said trying not to start sobbing.

"And today I am going to tell my mum and brother and I know they love me but I just don't know. Jack please sit next to me when I do this" he did as I asked.

"Oh and this is Jack" I said wiping my tears and he just gave me a sad smile. 

I dialed my mum and she answered quickly and I put her on speaker.

"Hi mommy"

"Hi Luna is everything okay you sound sad?"

"Yeah I'm okay is Xavier there?"

"Yes why do you want to talk to him?"

"Well, I wanted to talk to the both of you so if you could put it on speaker phone..."

"Okay"

"Hey Lu whats going on?" Xavier said.

"Are you guys sitting?"

"Yes" they said at the same time.

"There's something I need to tell you guys... I'm pansexual" I said and they both stayed silent. I heard some mumbling and it sounded like my mum was asking Xavier what pansexual was and he explained it.

"Luna?" I heard my mums voice.

"Yes mommy?" 

"One question are you happy?"

"Of course I am"

"Than thats all that matters to me I love you."

"I love you too mum."

"I love you Luna" I heard Xavier say.

"I love you too. Well I have to finish my video cause this was part of it."

"Okay I'll talk to you later sis."

"Bye" I said hanging up, this whole time Jack had his arm around me.

"So I didn't  just do this to get this off my chest but also to tell people about pansexuality. You don't have to ever label yourself but sometimes it helps us to fit in and before I knew what pansexuality was I never truly felt like I fit in. So this is to help those wondering who they are and its okay to not know now or ever just do you and be happy. I love you guys so much and I hope this helped at least one person. Also in the description I put links to different support websites for you guys to check out and hopefully they are useful. I'll see you guys next week" I said blowing a kiss at the camera and then stood up to turn it off.

I went back to Jack and just began to sob into his arms. I don't know if it was because I was finally freed of my secret or I was scared of the reaction I would get.

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So I know that almost no one reads this but I still think it's important for at least one more person to know about pansexuality.

I know that I could never come out to my mum about it so I made Luna in hopes that maybe it would do something for me idk I'm just crying wishing I could do it.

Hope you liked it sorry if you didn't after this it won't be brought up again 

Bye:3 

PS to everyone in the comments thank you so much for your kind words. It means a lot to me. I've never had so many people who support me in this way. And if you have any questions don't be afraid to ask. It's not offensive if you're just trying to learn. I'd personally rather be accidentally offended than there be ignorance about this subject. 

PSS this is so insane that when I wrote this chapter I got like maybe 20 reads per chapter if that. Now each chapter has over 2k reads. I just think its crazy how many people have now read and know more about pansexuality. Also the people who are saying to just come out I'm good now. I wrote this maybe like 2 years ago when I was so uncomfortable with who I was as a person but I'm not anymore. I am fine cause I don't feel like I'm "in the closet" and when and if I fall in love with a woman then I'll tell people but until then I am fine the way I am. Thanks for all the love guys