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Hyejin pov

The next day, as I told Ara, I thought of confessing and went to meet Jimin. He was alone in his studio, and this was the perfect opportunity to do it.

But did I?

No.

I panicked.

"Noona! You came just in time, hear this," he said as soon as he opened the door for me and dragged me inside.

He played the part he was working on, "it's great, Jimin, is this the one Namjoon helped you write?" I asked, "yep, it's this one," he nodded.

"Anyway, why are you here, noona?" he asked, taking a seat on his chair and letting me sit on the other chair. "Uh..." how do I start? "I... You know... These days... I am feeling... It's just that..."

Fuck it, I give up!

"Shit, I just remembered I have to do something, will come to you later, ok?" I said and hastily got up the same time he did. And we both head-butted and my heels slipped and I was falling backwards but he wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me up.

With the force he pulled me up, he had to lean on the table while I fell on him. My body was pressed against his while I had my hands on either side of his waist and when I looked into his eyes, he was eyeing how we were pressed against each other and moved up to my lips while my eyes moved down to his lips.

I don't know how he always manages to make his lips look like that, plum and juicy. Even at night when he stays over, I noticed how it looks glossy and realised it was the lip gloss but just how his lips look naturally like that.

I started leaning in, giving into my temptations of months to have a little taste of those plump lips which always looked juicy because of the lip balm he uses.

I don't know if I am imagining it or if he was also leaning in, just when I closed my eyes, I remembered that I can't kiss him before I confess. I wanted to properly confess and then kiss him, I am sure if I start it won't just end with a kiss.

I quickly pulled back and freed myself from his arms.

"I- I will leave," I hastily said and turned to the door while he still looked like he was in a dream. Just when I was about to open the door, he spoke, "noona, tonight, are you free? Haneul told me about this amazing Indian restaurant, you wanna join me?" he asked, I didn't look back at him but mumbled, "sure," and left the studio.

I am such a coward, I backed out last minute!

I should have prepared properly before confessing, this is my first time after almost a decade after all. And I can't just confess like this, I should have at least prepared a present for him.

Ok, I should first tell him how I found out I am bisexual and that I like him- or is it really necessary? Should I just tell him I like him? That would itself tell I am Bi. But that would be blank, I should explain to him properly so he understands me.

I planned on confessing tonight during dinner- but that's in public, confessing should be intimate, it should be within us, I can't let other people hear it.

Anyway, I should first buy him a confession gift. So that I could confess when the right time comes.

I cancelled my schedule for the rest of the day with my PA and left for the nearest mall.

Strolling around, I came across an earring.

I entered the shop and asked the salesperson for the earring, it was a platinum hoop earring with diamonds embedded in them. I didn't care it was too expensive for a confession gift, I was sure with how much he earns, this wouldn't matter to him.