Why So Far? || Minsung 3/3

I sit in the room with my tea and newfound sweatshirt. I refused to sit out with the guys. I embarrassed myself enough. Stupid Minho.

An hour goes by with me scrolling on my phone and a movie playing in the background. I hear some exchanges outside of the door, but no one comes in. I'm really glad they left me alone.

Jisung comes in, a small smile on his face. He looked worried; understandable. "Hey, you doing okay?"

I shrug, needing to be told I was okay rather than asked. "Are you coming to bed now?"

"Yeah, everyone just left. Do you need anything before we get settled?"

"You."

He snorts, crawling on the bed toward me. Our lips attach, soothing my pounding heart. I wrap my arms around him, burying my head.

"Did you tell them?"

"Yeah, just a simple version. Hit by a car and you were shaken up."

What were you thinking when you saw someone drop me off? Did you think badly of me? Did you ever, even for a moment, doubt my fidelity?

"Okay."

He kisses me one last time before leaving to get ready for bed. The room is cold, my fingertips already numb. Shut up. He'd never think of me that way. He would never. We have so much trust for each other. I'd never doubt his fidelity for a second, so why would he?

"Hey, you can talk to me, sunshine. I'm here." He's leaning against the doorframe, toothbrush in his mouth. His arms are crossed, flexing the smallest amount of muscle in his biceps.

Damn, his hotness always solves everything.

"I know. There's nothing to talk about. I'm okay."

He looks at me with doubt before leaving the room again. He knows me inside and out. He knows I'm lying, yet he doesn't push like I need him to. I need to talk to him or someone. Why do I feel so ignored? Is it me? Am I the problem?

I lay down, facing the wall. Minutes go by slowly with me listening to the faucet turn on and off. I hear his light footsteps pattering back to the room and the click of the room light.

He climbs into the bed, wrapping me up in his arms. It's been so long since he's touched me so much in one day. I can't tell if it's nice or if it stresses me out more.

Why has it been so long? We're over the first few weeks of this being a new experience. We've settled in. What did I do?