My Tormentor

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It's been a month to that incident but Isabella was still the same silent and cold. She neither eats, properly nor comes out of her room. She has stopped playing with Jingle bell also because that trauma had took a toll on her. Everyone is trying to bring her in her normal life including Nicholas but not his patience was running thin.

He never thought he will crave for her attention like this, someday. He did everything in his power to make her talk by threatening and gently too but nothing worked on her all she does was look silently at them but deep down she was noticing everyone's efforts but in reality she was really tired of all this.

She did everything what he asked her too either it was being a maid or submitting herself to him but still he didn't let her go but the irony was when he saved her from those men she felt a protective feeling from him. When that night she got the nightmares and he calmed her down and cooed sweet nothings in her ear she really did calm down.

She didn't know what that feeling was either she has gone living in this mansion with him or she is loosing her heart to her own tormentor. But how can she when he didn't leave any way of hurting her and promised me to broke her but now finally she she is broken he didn't waat it anymore. He wants her to be normal with him but what about her self respect.

She also wants to be loved once in her life. She wants to be cherished by someone only for once so she could see the beauty of that beautiful feeling which she never got from anyone. When she loved Chris he cheated on her and when she started liking Nicholas a little he broke her.

Why everyone hurts her just because they want her physically? The inner turmoil in her was so strong and it was creating havoc inside her mind. All in her mind was she also wanted to be loved, feel cherished only if it would be for show, she wants I feel that feeling and if for that she has to cross any line she will because she has nothing to loose now.

Her everything is crushed her love, her innocence, her trust, her self respect and what not. Then she also let all the things go for once and do what she wants either it is rational or irrational because she is tired doing good to everyone and now she wants something for herself and she will do it pushing all her rationality aside. If they want to play with her then she will also play but in her own way.

As she was lost in her own thoughts there was a knock on her door which made Jingle bell jump and Nicholas entered inside. As soon as Nicolas reached the bed Jingle bell jumped on him because it's their daily routine now. Nicholas comes to her room and tell to her about his day and ask her about hers.

In this one month, he spoke a lot to her. In this one month he has spoken more than he has ever spoken in his entire life but from her he always gets her silence. Isabella had heard his every single word and sentence. He use to tell her what he did the whole day, how he dealt with everything, how he use to think and look the world and what he used to think about her.

Suddenly Nicholas has changed completely he was trying to be good for her not knowing himself. He was trying to be the man who deserves her but only if he could have done all this before then today the situation would have been so different. He daily waits for her to speak but only gets her silence which irks him because he was still trying to change himself and it will take time for him.

He sat on the bed with Jingle bell in his lap and started caressing her furs while she meowed and rubbed herself on him. As it is fact, that cat chooses their owner and Jingle bell also chose her and Nicholas as her owners. She placed it's paw at his chest while he kept caressing her but his eyes were on the hazel eyed enchantress in front of him.

"How was your day, Bella?" he asked her gently and in reply got nothing from her.

"I know I look stupid doing all this daily. Telling you about my day without your will and talk nonsense to you and you have to hear it, having no choice." he said and placed his hand on hers but don't even get a reaction from her.

"But I don't know what to do anymore. I was grew up like this, an asshole and took a lot of time in realizing what I wanted exactly. I realized what I did was so wrong to you and it will never be compensated but I'm trying and will keep trying until you accept me." he said caressing her knuckles with his thumb soothingly while with his other hand he was caressing Jingle bell.

"I know I'm selfish too keep you here even after I told you that I will let you go after you will submit yourself to me and it was so stupid of me to have what I wanted and still not fulfil my promise but I'm helpless, Bella." he said and scooted a little closer to her.

"I'm helpless because I can't let you go. Even the thought of letting you go shakes me up. I can't imagine you not being in this mansion, in my life anymore. In this one month I have realized what wrong I did to you and how much I want you with me for ever. I don't know what do you think anymore about me but all I know is I can't let you go ever." he said and this was the first time Isabella had trailed her eyes to him in this one month and she directly stared in his eyes turning him startled but he maintained his posture.

He waited for her to say something but she didn't say anything and he slowly took her hand to his lips and kissed her knuckles softly. He looked back into her hazel eyes and that feeling of guilt again crept inside him. He felt a lump in his throat. When she didn't say anything he again spoke.

"I'm a human only, Bella and I know I did so many mistakes. What I did to you was a sin because I'm a sinner. I was born like this and only know how to hurt someone and get what I want but and when you showed defiance to me I took it as a challenge because no one defies to me and I couldn't take it." he said clenching his jaw at his past behavior and he was still not all changed. He was still his pathetic self but trying to tame it.

"I don't know what will happen to us anymore. I knew we were never an us but I want us to be together. I want you to accept the sinner inside me because this is who I'm and the sinner inside me wants you. I don't know myself what I'm saying but all I know is I want you by my side always and letting you go will never be something I will do." he told her looking down at the joined hands.

"Today when I was in office all my mind could think was you. When I was in meeting all I could see was your broken self, your cryings, your pleadings. I still get dreams of your trying to give up on your life that day and that incident still haunts me." he said rubbing his face with his hand.

"But in all this I also remember the moments you were trying to be good with me even if I was worst with you. I still remember the night you were in my embrace and I freaking slept that night peacefully after years of sleepless nights. I want that night back, I want that moments back." he said truthfully and the genuine feeling was clear in his cold eyes.

Isabella was also stunned to hear him speaking a lot. He has never spoke to anyone this much since she has seen him and in this one month he has talked to her a lot just a little kid ranting about his day to his mother but she couldn't bring herself to speak anything to him more like she was also testing his patience that how far he can go to make it up to her.

"I know you still need time to think about everything and I'm willing to give you my whole life but remember that I'm not letting you go ever." he said pulling her out of her thoughts and stood up from his place. He softly kissed her forehead making her to close her eyes.

"Come the dinner is ready and not to mention I'm very hungry." Nicholas said and extended his hand towards her which she kept staring blankly for sometime and stood up by herself. She started walking out of the room leaving Nicholas behind and he sighed knowing he deserved it and slowly he told Jingle bell in his arms walking out of the room behind her.

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I know the chapter is short but I was not feeling well today so leaving you with no update I chose to give a short update.

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