Private But Not A Secret [on A hiatus]

Zee

I didn't like ignoring Nunew, but I had to. During rehearsal, I couldn't keep my eyes off him. I really wanted to hold his hand so badly that I crossed my arms in case they betrayed me.

"Zee, please help Nunew open the piano," Max suggests. I give him a look of annoyance. I have already spoken to him about staying distant from Nunew. I know he is trying to pull us together. "It's okay, Max. I can do it myself," Nunew quickly says. I watch as he stubbornly tries to open it by himself.

"Yim, come here quickly," I call Yim over. "Can you help Nunew with the piano and keep him company?" I ask him. I look over and see Nunew sadly dusting the piano lid. "I don't mind, I'm finished with my practice anyway," he says, happily gliding back to Nunew's side. I watch and listen as Nunew practices and honestly get a little annoyed when Yim starts talking to Nunew over the piano.

After rehearsal, I feel bad when Nunew clearly wants to sit with me, even after the way I have been treating him all day. I quickly sit between two people so he cannot.

"Are you alright, Nunew? You have been quiet the whole dinner," James asks from across me and kicks my shin. "I'm fine, just tired from the rehearsal," Nunew answers, sounding like he was about to cry.

"Poor Nunew. You just need a pick-me-up. Let's go get some drinks after dinner," that drunkard Poppy suggests. "I second it, drink till you can't drink anymore before the wedding in three days," Nat says, looking tipsy.

I kept glancing at Nunew from the side of Yim. I peeked at him throughout the entire dinner. Once, he looked back at me, and I immediately looked down. I can't face him.

At the bar, we unconsciously grouped ourselves and separated. I thought that Nunew would go with Yim's group and not mine because of me. I was so wrong. He sat by himself next to the bartenders, looking so lost. "Why don't you just go to him?" Max suggested, pointing at Nunew. "It's so sad that he isn't familiar with any of us and would rather sit alone," Poppy joined in. I sighed. "It's not that easy," I said, watching a man build up the courage to talk to Nunew. He walked towards him, tried to get Nunew's attention, failed, and then left. Moments later, he went back to Nunew and tapped his shoulder, succeeding in getting Nunew's attention. I watched as Nunew stumbled upon him and heard his giggles. I stood up, but Net pulled me back. "If you don't want him, leave him," he said, pulling me back down. I calmed my mind. He was right, but I did want Nunew. I wanted Nunew, but I couldn't have him. I shouldn't be selfish. I looked for Nunew with eyes where he was sitting and didn't see him. I frantically looked around for him and finally saw him on the dance floor with some guy basically dry humping. The guy pushed Nunew's head, waiting for a kiss. I ran through the crowd without processing anything. I pushed Nunew away and grabbed the guy's collar. I was about to punch him when Max grabbed my arm from behind. "Zee, stop it now," he said. I looked behind me to see him but saw Nunew on the ground. He stood up and walked between the man and me. He screamed something, but I was so livid with jealousy I couldn't even hear what he was shouting about. I calmly spoke to him.

He drags the man away. I try to follow them but max holds me back. "You heard him." He says. "so you are just gonna let nunew leave with a stranger?" I protest. "the guy had a name tag on, he probably works here. They aren't going far." He says. The guys try to calm me down with water and unnecessary pep talks that I ignore. After I had enough of them I look for nunew. I see him laying on a rock looking sick. The stranger says something while looking straight at me. They exchange a few words which makes nunew grab his arm. This makes me walk faster. He leaves, leaving nunew on the rock. I grab nunew and hoist him on my shoulder.

I gently put him on his bed and take off his shoes. I don't know wether to put a blanket on him or not. It's pretty warm over here but the wind does tend to make the nights chilly. It's better to be safe then sorry. I think to myself and cover him with his sheets.

I crawl in my bed facing his. I should apologies to him. My jealously towards him today showed me that I can't let him go. I close my eyes and sleep.

".... So hot." I hear nunew say. I can't see anything apart from the digital clock that's on the desk across the beds. It read 02:45. "uhhg" I hear nunew, and hear some shuffling than see his shadow throw a piece of clothing on the floor, than another and another. He is probably naked. I can smell his heat. I shut my eyes tightly and put the covers over my head to give him privacy. I use my hearing to keep up with his movements. I hear him walk to the bathroom and switch on the shower. I don't hear the door shut through He hasn't close the bathroom door. After a while I heat his wet feet prattle out the bathroom. He stops in between the beds but hovers near mine for a few seconds than goes to bed. Weird. Once I hear him breathing hard and comfire that he is sleeping. I sleep too.

Nhu pov

After zee drags me away from Alex and puts me on his shoulder I close my eyes so I don't get sick from the bumby ride. He puts me on my bed, takes off my shoes and covers me with a blanket. He probably thinks that I'm asleep. He confuses me. Overthinking made me feel uneasy. I couldn't sleep. "The heat is unbearable" I say out loud trying to get zee's attention. "I'm going to take a shower." I say, I want him to give me attention. It's embarrassing to admit but I want it. "it's so hot." I say louder. I hear him stir from his bed and his breathing lightens. He is finally awake. I pretand to struggle taking off my clothes and throw them on the ground making sure they make noise. Now I'm naked. Zee covers his head with his sheets. Does he hate me that much? Now I'm naked and heartbroken. I go to the bathroom. My horny and hot ass still thinks there might be a chance he helps me with my upcoming heat. I leave the door to the bathroom open and take a shower. After my shower I don't bother wiping my feet because I remember during our talk at the bar yesterday, he said wet stains /puddles in the house are a pet peeve of his. Good. I make sure to stomp my feet so he can hear that my feet are wet. I stand over his bed and flick him off.

He makes so mad. The whole day he has been ignoring me, making me think about him and what I could have done to make him mad at me and the one time I finally  was able to talk to someone without thinking of him. He scared that person away. Why does he act like he cares. I make a stabbing motion over his covered head then I go to bed. Screw him.