Dear Anonymous Lover... (Style)

Chapter 6

I attempted to sound as neutral as I could in that sentence. Kyle can't know it's me behind the screen.

Ky: You have a point. Okay, I'll go and talk to Stan. Thank you!

Boo <3: no problem

Then I realized, maybe putting the sipping wet library book in his locker wouldn't put him in the best mood. So, I had to decide if I should keep it there and be able to talk to him on my terms, or just wait until he makes the first move, and with Kyle that's highly unlikely.

I scooted closer to Kenny.

"Dude, you know the plan? I don't know if we should go through with it. Kyle's gonna be super pissed if he finds out we were the ones behind it."

Kenny looked at me, "Well yeah, I've been telling you this the whole time. Go and fish the book out of his locker, I'll go to the library and get a new one. Maybe ask Cartman to keep him occupied?"

I sighed, hopefully all would be okay.

"Cartman! You should go and make fun of Kyle, he fucking sucks right?" I told him.

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"Nothing." I crossed my arms.

"What'd he do?!" Cartman yelled.

I looked at him straight in the eyes, "You'll have to find out."

Cartman ran away over to Kyle, shouting terrible slurs and terms.

I chuckled, but then stopped. Maybe I shouldn't be this proud about how easy I can manipulate others. But it's Cartman, so that's different, right?

I jogged out of the cafeteria and over to Kyle's locker where I opened it with ease and grabbed the book. Then, I headed for the library where Kenny was waiting.

We swapped books immediately and I ran back to his locker, shoved it in, and fell to the floor, panting.

"The fuck's wrong with you?" I heard Cartman say.

All of the kids were being released from lunch. Phew, I made it just in time.

"N- Nothing!" I breathed heavily. "J- Just go- on." I shoed him away.

I just sat there for a while while the other kids grabbed all their books and pencils. Soon enough, I heard Kyle coming near. He looked at me wearily before opening up his locker. He grabbed the library book and eyed it for a little bit, before taking it and shutting his locker.

Oh Jesus Christ, I can't believe that worked.

The rest of the day went on as normal. I sat in class, mindlessly fidgeting with random art supplies as the teacher rambled on.

The second the bell rang, I immediately jumped up and ran to my locker. If Kyle was gonna keep his word, he should be here somewhere.

So, I packed up and waited, and waited, and waited.

Of fucking course. Why did I think Kyle would change? Kenny was right. He was toxic and he didn't keep his word.

I grabbed my backpack and slung it over my shoulder, then I began to walk out of the building.

I met up with Kenny and we decided to walk home together. We mostly walk to save on gas. Our homes are fairly close to the school anyways.

Once I was on the street with my house, I could see a person standing in front of my driveway. What?

As I got closer, I saw the familiar green hat and orange jacket of Kyle Broflovski. So I guess he did keep his promise.

When I got into speaking distance, Kyle waved at me.

"Hey Stan."

I stopped right in front of him.

"Hey there Kyle."

He looked directly at me, "I'm taking initiative, Stan. We've both made mistakes, but my life was so much better when you were in it. I want to be your friend again. If you'll take me back."

I sighed, my anger was bubbling up again, "Why did you ditch me?! Why did you leave me at my lowest?!"

Kyle looked down calmly, "I'm sorry, I just wanted to help you. I was too weak to help you though. When you wanted alcohol, you would always blame me for not giving it to you, so I would buckle down and let you have some. Everyone was angry at me for allowing this behavior but, I couldn't stand to see you unhappy, even if the alcohol made your depression even worse."

I stepped back a bit. Really? Kyle only left me because he wanted the best for me? I just thought he was a terrible person. Well, you learn something new I guess.

"Kyle I... I didn't know."

He stared at me, "I know, I know you didn't know. It's not an excuse from me. I shouldn't have walked out on my friend like that. You have a right to be angry."

I just stared at the snow. Well now I feel like a huge dick, because I am a huge dick, which makes me more angry at Kyle. God dammit why does he have to be so attractive?

He kept looking at me, and I realized that he expected me to apologize too.

"I'm sorry for planting that chip in your backpack." I stated, "I have no excuse. As you're familiar with, my curiosity gets the best of me often. When I found out you were sticking up for me, I just wanted to know why, because I thought you hated me."

Kyle smiled, "Thank you, Stan. I would love to be your friend again."

I grinned back at him, "Of course."

He put him arms around me and started hugging me. I was a bit shocked at first, but eventually reciprocated the embrace.

We both stood there for, I don't know how long, but eventually he pulled away.

"I'm sorry, but you know my mom. I should get back before dinner."

I laughed, "Yeah. Well, I'll see you tomorrow, at lunch?"

Kyle looked surprised, "You want me at your lunch table?"

I patted his shoulder, "Yeah! We'll all welcome you with open arms."

His eyes lit up as he smiled, "Thank you so much Stan!"

He started walking away.

It was still very awkward with Kyle and I. That whole situation was just, weird. Maybe it's because I like him. I kept on beating myself up over it, but maybe I should embrace it. Kyle's changed, and he's not an asshole anymore. Actually, he never was an asshole.

I sighed to myself and went inside. Might as well keep on talking to Kyle. I whipped out my phone.

Boo <3: have you talked to him yet?

Ky: Yeah! He invited me to sit with him at lunch! I don't think I've been happier in years. Thank you!

Boo <3: no problem! hey, i have a question. i know this is supposed to be anonymous, but we've kind of already broken that rule. so, do you want to know who i am?

Ky: Well yeah, who are you?

Boo <3: not so fast! you're gonna get a hint everyday. once you find out you can ask me ;)

Ky: Fun idea, so can I get the first hint? I want to start going out with you already!

Boo <3: chill out, your first hint is that i'm on the football team

Ky: Well I already knew that!

Boo <3: still a hint, you'll have to wait until tomorrow

Ky: Fine

Kyle and I chatted all night. I had fallen bad for this boy. I highly doubt he felt the same though, Kyle probably just thought of me as a friend and nothing more.

But for now, I was fine with that. As long as I got to see him and talk to him, I'd be okay.

I eventually ended up going to sleep around three, but my mind clearly wasn't very fond of me, because I had a terrible nightmare. It's not like my mind had made up something terrifying, no, I just relieved the worst day of my life.