BEYOND THE STAGE: Notes From A Fan ?

The rameyon was really tasty, and both yn and iseul felt like it never tasted better... and after eating and talking a little bit, yn left with jungkook in his car.. The lights in the house was already lit, and the door was open the welcome them...

Yn was confused seeing that, and jungkook recognised it quite quickly..

Jungkook- my manager hyungnim came before to prepare everything..

Yn- does your manager does everything for you???

Jungkook smiled- kinda.. He buys clothes for me, receives my orders, pays all my bills, and then wakes me up in the morning, makes coffee for me or buys coffee for me.. Checks up on my health, makes appointments, and also sometimes scolds me...

Yn pouted- it seems like i am gonna live with you and your manager..

Jungkook chuckled- aniya.. He goes home at night..

Yn rolled her eyes and scoffed- really??? What a blessing..

Jungkook- actually our lives are weird ynahh.. We don't live like normal people.. It can be good and bad both.. And it is quite weird really... i come back home in the middle of the night, or the next morning.. I mostly go to bed in the morning, and wake up in 2-3 hours and then sleep in the way to work... i don't eat most of the time, and when i do, i buy food.. I sleep sometimes also in company... put on makeup and behave in a way, which is actually not very me.. And then people like us, listen to us, stan us, so we get paid..

Yn was silent..

Jungkook held her hand while getting in the elevator..

Jungkook- i know it is hard.. But i hope you would atleast try.. I know i am asking too much from you, but i am selfish.. I don't have any other option... i want you.. So i am hoping that you would stay with me, even after all these things.. ???

Before yn could reply anything, they were in the living room... the manager standing there with a black notebook in his hand, smiling..

Jungkook smiled- hyungnim.. Time for you to meet her.. Officially..

He bowed to yn, and yn bowed back smiling awkwardly..

Jungkook- i don't have to tell you, but keep it a secret until things are better... please..

Manager chuckled- jungkookahh... i have always told you, that you deserve love... and if it comes to me, i am always supporting your heart.. So don't worry..

Jungkook blushed- she would be here hyungnim.. I may not be present, or working.. Take care of all her needs and see that she never faces any problem.. If there is any need please call me immediately..

The manager nodded and left.. Leaving yn and jungkook alone in the house..

Jungkook smiled- i am sorry.. I am putting you through so much.. All these are weird i know.. My family says that too..

Yn chuckled- it is.. But-

Jungkook- what???

Yn- i would adjust.. But.. i need something..

Jungkook smiled- what??

Yn smiled- can i wake you up???

Jungkook couldn't understand- what???

Yn spread her arms around jungkook's waist, getting closer to him..

Yn smiled- i wake up early usually.. I can wake you up, if you give your wake up time.. I don't want manager oppa to get in our bedroom...

Jungkook chuckled cupping her cheeks- okay.. And??? What more things you want baby????

Yn smiled- a lot of things.. But i will tell you later.. One step at a time.. Okay???

Jungkook scrunched his nose- aishhh.. Definitely... one step at a time baby..

Jungkook stayed looking at her eyes and taking a deep breath in and out..

Jungkook sighed- i can't show affection infront of people, and also to most people... you are one of the exceptions..

Yn chuckled hearing him..

Jungkook- so i wanted to kiss you very badly from the moment i saw you in iseul's house.. But i couldn't.. As she was there, and you also may feel embarrassed.. So i didn't..

Yn nodded- yes.. That would have been too touchy, too soon..

Jungkook chuckled- so can i kiss you now???

Yn removed her arm from him and pushed him away, taking a few steps back.. Crating distance between them.. Atleast of 4 feet...

Jungkook- what??

Yn chuckled- it always starts with a kiss..

Jungkook blushed with a soft chuckle- thats true..

Yn grinned- go shower first.. And then you can kiss me..

Yn bit her lower lip in between her teeths, making jungkook's breath hitch...

Yn- anywhere you want..

Author's Note

hey guys.. how are you all doing??? 

today i thought about writing something to you.. although i don't know you guys personally and you don't even know me, but it feels the way i write my stories and you read those, it creates a bond between us.. and i feel like it was a comfortable space for me to be myself.. 

sometimes you have to let things go.. no matter how hard it is.. how close you are to that thing, or to that person.. how would you know if you should let this go, you ask your heart, and it will reply you.. 

although nobody will tell you so, but i am saying this, that the voice of your heart is enough reason for letting someone go.. 

there won't have to be any other reason or explanation, than that your heart says so... and that is valid enough.. 

i blamed myself enough and enough for the past few months, due to the choices i made, bcz my heart said so.. i felt like it wasn't enough, that i need more explanation and critical reason to take action and do something which might be frowned upon.. i spent days crying, and laying awake in bed, blaming myself.. and thinking why things are falling apart.. (you guys will know, as i wasn't posting regularly and tbh i never wanted to write anymore).. 

but your heart is enough.. really.. we live in a world, which values making things critical unecessarily.. things are seen and made complex for no other purpose than the fun of doing it.. 

but accepting that your heart says, taking action, and then if you feel sad, take days to cry and vent.. and then you will be free.. you will be yourself again.. 

just like yoongi said, "i am anxious all the time".. but it doesn't have to be a bad thing.. i love the anxiety and the pain i feel sometimes, just bcz i listened to myself.. 

it is so funny and freeing.. i love it.. 

take care guys.. sorry for this long ass note.. i love you guys.. 😘😘😘❤❤❤