Why does it have to be the way it is? (Soukoku)

Yosano now knew about Dazai's health issues, she felt sorry for her brother. Ranpo on the other hand was suprised, though he can figure out everything his brother's life was mystry. He couldn't predict everything about Dazai that is the reason the asked for fancy hat's help. Kunikida was really worried and sad about his partner. He had crush on Dazai knowing the fact that he is already taken made him even more sad.(Dude was not sad he was depressed 😔). All now knew why he was so close to the kids and was like their mom literally.

The kids were happy when Dazai woke up after a day. Dazai hugged those kids . Kenji was still seemed like crying. Atsushi, Tanizaki, Naomi and Haruno were happy that he was doing fine.

Chuuya left a note in the fruit basket. He wanted to fix his relationship with Dazai. He knew it's difficult but he wanted it to be fixed. He want his husband to love him back

Dazai looked at paper he knew chuuya wanted to talk to him but was very nervous what if he is still mad at him, definitely he would be mad . Who wouldn't be mad when his wife didn't say anything about his pregnancy and their kids were gone.

Dazai went to their spot, Chuuya was waiting. They met it was awkward but Chuuya made him feel comfortable.

Chuuya - So where shall we go.

Dazai - I want to buy some flowers would you perhaps join me.

Chuuya - okay but for whom.

Dazai - you will know.

They both bought chrysanthemum, lilies( symbolises grief, loss and love), white roses as odasaku liked it.

They headed towards graveyard. Chuuya was thinking why they were heading towards graveyard, just wow you are meeting your husband after four years and your first date is going to be at a graveyard.

Chuuya's pov -

I saw as he played white roses on oda's grave I paid my respect. He turned towards his right side that is when I saw a small grave of two. I read " in memory of Kaori Nakahara and Daichi Nakahara" . I didn't know what to do I was just feeling pain. He kept those flowers and said " it's their death anniversary ". He sat beside the grave and I sat next him . He leaned and placed his head on my shoulder. This is the grave of my kids he even gave their surnames as Nakahara and not Dazai. He truly loved and trusted me so much. I rested my head upon his head and we both cried silently but even we didn't realise.

They sat there for a while . Dazai stood up and later Chuuya did.

Dazai - Aren't you mad at me . I didn't say anything about this whole thing and I lost our kids it was my fault. Knowing all of this why aren't you mad at me.

Chuuya didn't say anything his feature softened he was about to say something.

Dazai - shout, scream say something.

Chuuya - You know the most precious thing I have in my life is you. And it's not your fault that our kids are dead, don't blame yourself. I am glad I still have you after all you had cancer. I wanna be yours will you accept me as your husband, Osamu. This time I promise, I will protect you at any cost.

Dazai - of course, but you deserve more than me. I can't give you kids.  I was indeed very lucky to have you. But you deserve this world. Everyone I love have to leave me behind.

Chuuya - nah, I deserve you. It's okay if we don't have kids I just want you, love and cherish every moment of my life with you.please accept me.

Dazai - so do I, but I need some time. But promise you won't leave like the others did.

Chuuya - I promise. And take your time but not too much we already been separated for years now.

Both giggled and hugged each other.They thought of meeting eachother regularly and exchanged contact. Chuuya droped him at the office and left.

Chuuya - sis I went to meet Dazai and we paid our visit to our kids grave.

Kouyou - I am sorry for the lose.

Chuuya - thank you. You know he named them Kaori Nakahara and Daichi Nakahara. He gave my surname to the kids.

Kouyou - federal twins I see. Indeed  your wife named them. They are beautiful names and has a lot of meanings to it.

Chuuya - what is the meaning of their names?

Kouyou - the girl's name(Kaori) means new beginnings filled with sweetness and the boy's  name means(Daichi) means world. Those kids meant world and a new beginning for him.

Chuuya - it's unfortunate we don't have them but I want him to be fine that's my priority now.

Kouyou - I hope he would be, take care and good night.

Chuuya - Good night, sis.

Chuuya slept he was excited to finally have the person he loved back in his life .

The ada followed him because they were afraid of him committing again but they watched the couple at the graveyard and left them alone .

Dazai could sleep peacefully without taking pills after years he felt relieved. He was happy for the first time after four years .