The Louvre of Art ~INTERSEX GXG~

Jasmines POV🌹

Relaxing by the pool, my now girlfriend owns at her literal mansion is a life I can endure. I have to admit, after hearing her telling me what she does, I was surprised honestly. But that's because I thought gun smugglers and dealers were only in the movies. But obviously she's really good at it. It doesn't change my views on her one bit and if anything that's scares me about this whole thing. I mean, why am I not freaking out about this? Why am I not running?

But I know what you're thinking, why didn't I say I love you back? Well I froze. It's not because I don't love her because god knows I fell for her the moment her sun kissed eyes met mine in that museum. It's just this week did not go as planned and I got scared. Yes I made her my girlfriend because I was tired of pretending like this isn't already a committed relationship the second we met. But love? That's scary to say out loud when your partner does something like this and then can disappear without a trace. I'd lose myself in hopes that's she's fine. I don't know why I brought up Maria, but James words hit. I mean what if her love for her is stronger than hers for me? She had to love her to not kill her when it was obvious Maria would have. I hate I can't say it back but I can't risk the heartbreak of being disappointed or worse.

"Hey there beautiful." I look to my left to see Carter coming back.

I smile at her and she sits down on the same lounge chair as before. "Hey. Everything ok?" She nods.

"Just a little misunderstanding in authority. It was fixed." She says and I nod. "Are we ok?" She asks and I sigh.

"Carter," I turn fully to her and grab her face with both hands. "I'm scared." She nods. "Not of you or what you do but what can happen."

She shakes her head. "Baby nothing is going to happen."

"Can you promise that?" She goes to open her mouth but then she sighs and shakes her head. "Exactly. I'm gonna be in constant fear of something happening to you especially if you have to go dark on me again. Carter, 5 days was hard for me, imagine weeks, months. I can't lose you."

She grabs my wrists and kiss them and I smile. "You're not going to lose me. No I can't promise nothing will happen to me but I can promise to love you. Promise to love you until our next life where again I will find you and love you again." I blush and she sighs with her eyes looking into mine. God I do love her. "We'll be fine."

I nod. "I know."

"Why did you ask me about Maria?" I look down and back up.

"Um James said you loved her and that before you guys went dark he asked you did you still love her but you didn't answer the question." She nods.

"What's your question Jasmine?"

"Do you still love her?"

She shakes her head. "No. That love I had for her was for the person she pretended to be to get to my family and I. The real Maria is as good as dead to me."

"So why didn't you kill her when you had the chance to?"

"Because I still saw that person. The person who laid in my arms every night for the 2 years we were together telling me she loved me and wanted to have a family of our own together. Even in betrayal, I couldn't do it."

"And now?" She looks at me. "Will you be able to when the time comes?"

She swallows. "I-I don't know." My eyes waver from hers and I release her face taking a shaky breath. "Baby."

I shake my head. "You don't love her but you are not willing to kill her to stay alive for someone you do love?" Her lips part at my words. I nod. "I get it Carter. I don't have an ex that I loved so this is new to me and maybe-maybe I just got it wrong and I don't understand." Tears form in my eyes. "But I'm not mad at you, it just shows that big heart I fell in love with. But I am hurt."

"Jas-" I hold my hand up and wipe my tears.

"I'd like to go home. You live in the middle of nowhere and I need to be ready for work tomorrow." I say telling the truth but also not wanting to be here right now. She nods.

"Katherine dropped of your clothes. They're in the room. I'll have the car ready to take you home." I nod and stand up but she grabs my hand. I stop and look down at her as she looks up in my eyes. "I'm sorry."

I shake my head and lean down to kiss her softly letting the kiss linger as I feel the salt of both of our tears on our lips. "Don't be." I stand up straight and go back in the house. I get back to the room somehow and see the clothes laid on the bed. High waisted blue jeans, yellow off the shoulder cropped top and yellow sandals. Katherine's got taste. I put the outfit on and clean my face of tears. I grab my purse and dress and head back out.

I make it outside and the view of the house during the day is just as beautiful as the night with trees surrounding the property, the fountain in the center of the long driveway. "Ms. Williams, I'll be escorting you home today per request from Ms. Fontaine." A man in black and white suit says and I nod.

"Uh thank you." I get in the car and look out the window to see Carter standing outside the door watching me. He starts the car and my heart breaks with each time I look back to see her still standing there. We pull up to my apartment and he helps me out. "Thank you so much." He nods and leaves as I walk inside. I walk in and sigh leaning my back on the door. I miss her.

Me: I made it home
Unknown Number: I'm glad. I have a meeting tonight but I want to see you
Me: maybe not tonight I want to catch up on work
Unknown Number: of course my love I'll call you the minute I arrive back home ok
Me: promise?

Ring Ring! I smile at her calling and I answer. "Yes?" I answer smiling ear to ear like I didn't just leave her house because I was hurt that she might still have strong feelings for her ex psycho girlfriend. God I need therapy! Or just a drink.

"I promise baby. I will call."

"Ok. Good night if I'm asleep by then."

"Good night baby. I love you." She hangs up as I still have the phone to my head loving those three words fall from her lips like rain. I love you too.