The way that it should have been

Chapter 48

It's no wonder that Rose always swoons every single time that she sees him. Because the guys is built like the fucking Incredible Hulk, a Sherman tank, or a Mac truck maybe. I mean seriously, how much does he have to work out to be able to look like that? I wonder if I could ever get to look even remotely like that, Lissa might like that.

'Oh, for pete's sake Christian, get your mind on what you are supposed to be doing. Lissa likes the way you look just fine.' I argued with myself for a moment.

Shaking my head, I forced my mind back to where it's supposed to be. I asked Lissa a question. "What is going on Lissa, what is happening to Rose?"

"I am a spirit user, you already know that, but what you don't know is that a spirit user's powers are linked to their emotions. Much more so than any of the other elemental magics. Being a spirit user, I can feel every single emotion easily a thousand times stronger and more deeply than other people can. And when I say every emotion, I mean exactly that. Hurt, anger, pain, passion, desire and love I feel stronger than most everyone else in the whole world. And because Rose is shadow kissed, she can as well. So, when we love someone, like Rose loves Dimitri and I love you, we love deeper than you can even possibly imagine. And when we lose someone, like if Rose lost Dimitri or I lost you, then we couldn't go on. Our grief and loss would cripple us before it ran us crazy and destroyed us mentally, emotionally, and even physically. And if I lost you, Rose would feel it through me just not anywhere near as acutely as I would. So anyway, when I get hurt, upset, angry or any other negative emotion. They replicate very quickly, and it soon gets to be too much for me to be able to bare, it gets beyond my control. That is when Rose steps up and in and takes the darkness that all of these thoughts and feelings generate. Then when she is already hurt and angry, like she was before, that makes it doubly worse for her. Because she already had her own darkness to deal with, but then she took mine as well so that I wouldn't have to be hurt by it or have to deal with it myself. I have never seen her this bad before. If Dimitri can't bring her back to us, she could be like this for the rest of her life. And if she were to get away from Dimitri, she can snap Kirova's neck, or even rip her head from her shoulders, in a fraction of a second. The only two other times that she has lost it, as I said it wasn't this bad, but she had to be sedated for almost a week before she came out of it. I don't know if there is any other way to bring her out of this, because that is the only thing that has ever worked before."

I was in shock; I knew that Rose could take Kirova out without any problems whatsoever. But her having the strength and speed to do it in a fraction of a second stunned even me into silence.

I didn't even think that it was possible for her to be able to get to Kirova in that small amount of time. But apparently, I was so very very wrong about that. And finding out that the only treatment that they had found that worked in the past. For what Rose was going through right now, was for her to be sedated for a week, worried the hell out of me.

Rose and I didn't always get along, we liked to argue with each other because it was fun, and it was hardly ever serious. But she is my friend, she was actually more like my sister. And knowing the extent of what was happening to her worried and concerned me deeply.

Just then a feeder was led into the room and Lissa started to feed which took my mind off of everything else for the moment.

(DPOV)

"Roza, detka please. I love you milaya moya, I need for you to come back to me. Fight this Roza. Please Roza, fight for me... fight for our love dorogaya moya. Fight for our future together lyubov' moya please. Remember, I can't live without you lyubov' moya. I won't live in a world without you in it Roza moya. I refuse to live without you detka." (baby, my dearest, my darling, my love, my love, my, baby)