I'm still the monster... I'm still the same.
So oh God forgive me, but I still hate you, you let me down and I hate you.
My shadow is too big, it envelops me... almost crushes me.
How could you give such a burden to a child...?
I'm still the same... cold and desperate, give me some meaning.
she asks me, who do you want to be? And I say I don't know, I never thought I would still breathe...
The monster inside me whispers in my ear, wants me to do unspeakable things.
Fighting against the voices... but I go crazy, smiling madly and imagining things that I would be punished for...
Yes, I'm sorry, mother... I'm not your little girl anymore.
God I'm going crazy, swallowing pills bit by bit.
I look at myself in the mirror for hours and grin, I know it's crazy.
I know there is a solution... but it is my biggest poison.
actually want to go back... but want to try, but the voices start to scream...
