My Story (? ??????? ?)?? chuuya x reader

1/2 a month later...

Y/n pov:

'Its been almost a month since me and dazai got together..i cant wait to see him today i havent yet tho since he had to go on a mission with oda 'lucky i wanted to go as well...but its to risky ig' so now im stuck in the house on my phone...'

'Me and chu have gotten close...so close that he told me he worked for the mafia....(not that i didnt already know lol) but he also talked about me...and how he missed me...(well me but not the me hes talking about lol i confuse myself sometimes....hehe)' I look at my notifications checking to see if dazai has wrote...

'nothing... its been almost 4 hours and he has not wrote me...i hope everything is alright!' I set my phone down and get dressed in my casual black croptop and holy jeans with some black tennis shoes and my big black coat on my shoulders..I head to the lupin bar to see if he went there without me...

15 mins later...

I get to the bar and open the door i see oda and ango..who seems very on edge and is sweating a lot..i then see dazai in the middle and was saying something to him...it was to quiet for me to hear so i use my ability to and possess one of  women near them....As soon as i do i hear dazai talking in a very dark way ¨Sooo~ ango did you come for a drink?¨  ango then shakes his head ¨no...i came for work actually¨ then there is a moment of silence 'damn i wonder why everyone seems soo dark?' ¨dazai then starts talking again but more quietly so i cant here much untill he says ¨Ango your true identity in an agent of the Ministry of Internal Affairs made to monitor the Port Mafia's movements...am i right? ango~¨ he says a little louder....'Whaaaa!? ango i a betrayer' 

I relize at the same time as dazai says it ¨So you were a double spy ango...¨ oda looks at him shocked ¨huh how!? who do you work for?¨ ango looks at them both and looks down ¨I was a spy agent sent to  spy on mimic and the mafia...¨  ango says quietly. i look at the seene shocked and dazai then says ¨who do you really work for?¨ ango sits there for a minute ¨i wish i could have met you two under different circumstances....i work for  the Special Division for Unusual Powers..¨ dazai nods and says ¨It wouldn't have mattered what side you were on because anything that I never want to lose is always lost. This is how it's always been for me. Everything worth want is lost the moment I obtain it. And nothing I pursue is worth the cost of prolonging this life, this suffering.¨ i stare at dazai.....not expecting that at all and then dazai looks at ango..

He leans forward, a dangerous glint in his eyes)\ "You know, Ango, you've been playing a dangerous game. You really think you can keep getting away with this?" ango Swallows hard "I... I'm just doing my job. It's not like I'm trying to cause trouble." i lean fordard to hear more. Dazai then Scoffs "Job? You think this is just some 'job'? You're walking a tightrope, and the only reason you haven't fallen is because you're still clinging to the remnants of our past. But that's not going to last."

Ango then hesitates "What do you want, Dazai?" Dazai then has a cold smile creeping across his face "I want you to leave. Leave before I decide to make things... difficult for you. You know I can, don't you?" Ango stares at him, clearly shaken up "You wouldn't..." i stare at them both and shiver feeling the darkness from dazai. Dazai then raises an eyebrow "Oh, wouldn't I? You've been pushing your luck, Ango. I'm not the same naive kid you used to know. I can be ruthless when I need to be.¨

A tense silence hangs in the air, as Ango looks at Dazai, his eyes flitting between the dark determination in Dazai's gaze and the exit of the bar. I sit there and almost feel bad for ango..but he is a tradior now so i have no remorse. Ango then Stands up slowly, his voice low "Fine. You've made your point." Dazai sits there and watches him go, a hint of a smirk playing on his lips "Don't forget, Ango. This isn't over. Not by a long shot." Ango then exits the door and dazai stares at his drink.....

I decide ive had enough drama for the night and undo my ability returning to my own body outside the bar...i then quickly run home.....when i get home i rush to my room and close my door quickly put on some pj's and jump in bed falling asleep before dazai returns..so i dont have to talk to him and pretend i dont know what happened...

The Next Day...
12:30pm

I wake up and stretch..i then look at the time and freak out thinking im late for work when i grab my phone and turn it on and see its sunday...'ohh thank you lord!' i think as i look at my notifications..the only notifications i have are fron chuuya and my bestie aria....(she is my bestie that i found out lives a few blocks down and we met on that random chat i installed turns out she works for a strip club now because she needs the cash...because her boyfriend of 5 years died last year in battle.....he worked for the army ig and he had an ability called Shadow Weaver allowing him to control shadows..his name was David. i ask what he looked like and she said he had baby pink hair (because his friend survived cancer) and blue eyes i told her i think she should look for someone new and she tells me shes gonna wait until the 'perfect' one witch i understand. so i got her phone number so we could talk a lot more) And i text her.

Me: 
Heyyy bestie i need to meet up with you you free?

I give her a min and go get dressed with just a black hoodie and some legging shorts. I then put up my hair and brush my teeth. I check to see if dazai wrote but theres nothing from today...or last night...i get pissed so i get off it and see aria wrote me back. 

Aria:
Sure i get off work in 1 hour so i can meet you
at the local coffee shop since we both LOVE coffee lmao.

Me:
niceee and okie ill see you then!

Aria:
see you then!

I turn off my phone and go outside for
a little walk to pass the time....

30 mins later..

I check the time and see that its 1:00 so i start walking to the cafe...

The cafe....

As soon as i get in the cafe i go sit down where i usually sit when i meet up with aria..and i scroll on my phone on tiktok..and then i get a message from chuuya...(i changed his name on the app and my name hehe) 

ChuChu:
hey hru??

Badass: 
Im good just chillen getting coffee 
hru? 

ChuChu:
Ohh that sounds like fun!
im good just about to head to work!

Badass: 
Cool hope you have a good day then
and stay safe!

ChuChu:
I will dont worry : )
ttyl

Badass: 
ttyl

I turn my phone off and see aria come into the cafe..i get up and hug her tightly. "heyy bestie i missed you hru?" she smiles and says "im good hru??" i back up and we sit down at the table "ive been okay" we then order our coffee and talk a little bit and then when it got late i walked her home and then i went home..i look around for dazai and i dont see him..i just head to bed...

A Few Weeks Later...

'dazai has been really distant to me since the bar insident...he never brought it up to me..and i never asked..we havent gone out or really hung out that much since it happened last night i hear from a few members that Mimic was getting worse... I get a notification on my phone from boss so i get on my phone and see what he wrote...

Pedo: 
Something has happened and i need you in my office now..

Badass: 
Yes sir..When is a good time?

Pedo:
right now is best.

I get worryed and look around for dazai hoping he was good since last night he was very on edge..i dont see him and i rush to moris office..

In Moris office...

As soon as i get there i see elise and mori..'hes even on edge wth is going on..' i bow to him and he stands up and walks to me..i stand up and he says "with mimic being our biggest threat right now so i made a deal with them and disclosed some info about someone they wanted info about. I need you to go to this place and watch from afar to make sure it goes well..He hands me a note and I bow again and walk out of his office avoiding everyone and rush to the location...

 
I get there and automatically feel something off...im in front of a two division house thats light brown. i then see oda there with grocerys so i go to confront him. As soon as i get to the house i see him jump out of window and run towards a van..I look at it and see kids inside..automatically recognizing them as his orphans he save..the van blew up and my eyes widen in horror 'WHAT THE FUCK!!!' i internally scream..and i hear him screaming in pain..my eyes water and i feel my phone vibrate...'mori..'

Pedo: 
So did their plan work?

Badass:
you mean did odas kids die?
you knew didnt you!

Pedo: 
Of course i knew i set it up..
do you have an issue...

Badass:
no sir..

I turn my phone off and look for oda..i see dazai going to grab oda as he just walks away...'i have a very bad feeling...' i run home as fast as possible and take a shower to get all the dirt and grim off myself and then i just go to bed..' 

The Next Day...

I wake up to a phone call...from dazai? i answer very quickly and hear a quiet sobbing i get very worryed and say "Dazai where are you, Are you ok?? whats wrong?" I hear him sniffle.."oda is dead..." it takes me a while to process it..."what?" i say not believing it "oda h-hes dead...he got himself killed.."

 'omg omg omg what am i gonna do hes dead an he ment the world to dazai...he loved oda...' i think but then say "where are you dazai?" he sighs "dont worry about me youll see me soon.." i smile glad i would see him soon "ok stay safe ill talk to you later" its very quiet and then he says "bye" and then hangs up the phone...

I sit in the living room waiting for dazai to get home and then i get another call..i quickly pick up thinking its dazai.."Hello wh-" i get cut off "Dazai betrayed us and left the mafia" 'huh? dazai....did what..' i think "What do you mean..i was just on call with him earlyir he..never said anything...like that" as im talking i start to breakdown..."dazai left and is gone...no one can find him we have been looking for almost 3 hours...'3 hours....thats when he hung up on me...' "oh..ok thx then.."

Mori hangs up and i fall on the ground crying...'i thought he loved  me...why didnt he tell me or say a proper goodbye...what am i supposed to do now..i have no one...' i then grab my headphones and my phone and start listening  to music to calm down so i dont have a panic attack...

As im listening to music a song comes on and i already know it and automatically think of dazai when a part comes on...and so i start singing it to myself hoping it would make me feel better...

Where have you been? 
Do you know when you're coming back?
🎵
'Cause since you've been gone 
I've got along but I've been sad 
🎵
I tried to put it out for you to get 
Could've,should've but you never did
🎵
Wish you wanted it a little bit 
More but it's a chore for you to give
🎵
Where have you been?
Do you know if you're coming back?
🎵
We were too close to the stars 
I never knew somebody like you,

somebody Falling just as hard 

🎵
I'd rather lose somebody than use somebody 
Maybe it's a blessing in disguise (I sold my soul for you)
I see my reflection in your eyes 
🎵

I sing my heart out and cry my eyes out feeling alone but then something snapped in my head...an idea.. and i look at my phone and got on my chats with chuuya....

Badass:
Heyy do you think we could meet up...
ik its sudden but i have something i should have told 
you a while ago...

Chuuya automatically responded..

ChuChu:
umm sure ig what about tonight at the local bar 

( author note: he knows i live close to him) 

Badass: 
Okay sounds good ttyl

ChuChu:
ttyl

I turn my phone off and start to get ready. im going to reveal myself tonight not caring about what dazai would say about it...



Author note:
Heyy peeps i hope you guys are doing well! make sure you eat and drink lots of water! 
if you need  help get THERAPY!! (i need some as well dont worry lol!) Just know you are loved and cared for...