~Miming Around~???????????????

Your Pov

My life has always been nothing but disappointment along with nothing special happening, no partner (well now ex partner/boyfriend), lonely, depressed, wanting to feel loved and adored by someone who loves me for me but I never got the taste of what that feels like.

The only feeling I know is pain, I can put on a fake face and lie with a smile on my face bit deep down I'm on the verge of cracking through a thin layer of ice. I can only hope my life will get better...I can only hope.

But their is one thing that keeps me going and that my friends is playing as a Mime, that's right I'm a mime and a pretty good one from what people say, it's easy to make people happy when being playful as a mine, not saying a word and taking it day by day.

Being a mime is something I somewhat adore, all though I haven't met any other mime performers yet so I have no one to chat to when it comes to being a mime but that's ok since I'm so use to being along it's sad really.

My makeup is somewhat different then what other mimes do I use the white face paint of course, the black lipstick and eyeliner, but the thing I add on that goes with my character is that I add 2 small tear outlines on the left side of my face but where my eye ends.

It shows how I cry deep down even though you can't see it, people just think it's something unique but it's something worse in my own opinion.

I only performed at kids birthday parties, adult birthday parties, hell I even performed at a strip club once that was an experience I don't really want to talk about again. But anyways, I haven't been hired onto an official job where I can stay for a while and not have to move onto something else until now.

I received a text on my phone from a place I know as SeaWorld, they wanted to hire me onto a mime gig they had going where mimes walk around where the sea lions perform ever so often. I heard the pay is great so I looked into the job before I accepted, I never just dive into a job unless I do my research and that I always do. I was excited don't get me wrong but I was also very nervous, I've never done a job like this before, I've only done small groups of people I've never done very large groups of people, makes me very nervous to hear about this consider I do sometimes have panic attacks when I get overwhelmed so easier.

But my first day will be tomorrow thankfully because I needed to earn some money soon anyways, it's been a while since I had a job because let's be honest people don't exactly hire mimes everyday it's rare in my eyes.

It's late in the evening, I wasn't all too hungry so I skip dinner and lead myself into the bathroom that's in the bedroom of my somewhat small apartment. It's nothing fancy but it's home.

And that's all that counts in my eyes as long as you have a roof over your head it will always be home.

I had to get up really early so I know I had to get into bed sooner rather then later, I usually sleep in but it seems I'll have to break that habit as well.

I strip out of my outfit I was wearing, it was just some black leggings with a black AC DC T-shirt, it was my dad's shirt, I've had it ever since he died it was a special..

Next I slowly slipped and carefully slipped off my undergarments. Which was my black sports bra and black panties, I can't wear a normal bra they feel too uncomfortable so sports bra it is!, I slipped into the shower and instantly the warm water hits my skin and my nerves relax, a warm shower always calms me down...

I spent about 20 minutes under the warm waterfall of water, cleaning myself up, making sure I was rinsed off and turned the water off and made my way out while wrapping my towel around my body. It held on like a glove, the cool air throughout my home made my nerves stand on end, I was in my bedroom so fast, all I wanted was to wrap myself up under the covers and rest up for my first day at SeaWorld.

I dropped the towel and wrapped my hair in it. I wanted to get ad much water out of it as possible, it works really well as I release my long hair and toss my towel off to the side, my bed awaiting me as I turn over the covers and slip right in, my naked form all warm and comfortable...best feeling ever and best of all I was warm.

I picked up my phone before drifting off and setting my alarm so I don't over sleep, I'm pretty sure I won't be late I live pretty close to SeaWorld so that shouldn't be a problem.

I set my phone down and take a deep breath before I slowly shut my eyes to welcome myself to a good night's rest hopefully. I can only hope my night terrors won't come back to haunt me tonight, I need a break from those they happen almost every night which is why I sometimes don't really sleep and I know that's definitely not healthy.

I turn onto my left side and got comfortable, my mind was shutting down for the night as I drifted off more and more. Now that I'm thinking about it I'm actually nervous for tomorrow.

Like really nervous...