Fallen For Sin // SKZ

Changbin can't find Chan anywhere. Not like he knows heaven. It feels like playing that hot or cold game? But with pain.

At times he feels pain so deep it makes him freeze, and other times it's so muted Changbin begins to look around frantically but nothing.

He's checked everywhere...he knows. But Chan, well he could be in heaven where Changbin can't reach him. But everytime he goes into the corner of the mansion, it's muted. So he's near just not nearly enough. And it's driving Changbin mad. So much he starts screaming.

"CHANNN!! IM SORRY! LOOK LETS TALK! CHANNN!" changbin curses when he gets no response. He's in the greenhouse area, and he keeps moving eyes in awe as he sees flowers on flowers opening and blossoming. It's beautiful. He's shocked he hadn't noticed it before.

He walks and walks and the pain decreases.

He's near.

Changbin falls upon a forest of cherry blossom and weeping willows and with light steps he goes in.

And there he was. Chan. Was curled up in the middle, on top of a flower bed. The petals slightly curled around him, and well he looks beautiful.

"Chan?" Changbin mumbled as sweet as he can, pretending to be talking to a small animal not wanting to scare Chan. Because he will quite literally trap him before Chan runs away and he feels like...
Well.

It's awful. It's a feeling unknown to him but it's engraved deep in his bones. Like a second skin and it's terrible. And he doesn't want to assume, and he hates that there is no other assumption to make.
But how could someone...how could an angel go through that? Wasn't God supposed to protect him?

A soft whimper draws Changbin out of his thoughts as he sees Chan stir. Eyes fluttering until they fall on him, and in lighting speed Chan shoots up.

"Don't!"

"I won't. Chan.." chan turns his head away. Wings big and puffed up.

"Chan.." he won't turn.

"Chan please...just please look at me?"

He still doesn't. Changbin breaths out, he's getting angry. His Wrath burns through him. And he doesn't mean too stomp the ground harshly watching Chan's eyes flicker to him.

"Chan."

"What."

"I'm sorry. I didn't look the kiss meant nothing-"

"Nothing?" Suddenly there Chan's laugh rings in Changbin's ears but it's not the one someone makes out of joy, it was exhaustion and disbelief, "You know...ever since I've met you there's this anger deep inside of me. One I haven't felt ever. I wonder if our feelings are intertwining, why your being so nice as a demon. But that kiss didn't meant nothing to me." Chan turns around. Fully facing Changbin, body standing at it's full height. Which was not much but compared to changbin he was taller.

"But I'm exhausted you know? At this bond. This wasn't what I was supposed to be. My kind kills yours. And that's how it is. As soon as this is over, I don't want to speak to you." Chan sighs deeply.

"You were raped, weren't you."

And time stills. Chan's eyes turn big.

"That's why you reacted that way. When you're far from me...I feel pain in places...that are private. And I feel dirty, so dirty. And skittish."

"No. No I wasn't. I. Where are the others-"

"No Chan. Chan-hyung listen to-"

"You don't get to call me that!" Chan shouted.