Back To Everything (Sweeran)

This goes really fast so pay attention ;)

 How? What? When? Where? WHY?!?!?!? These were just a few of my thoughts taking its way through my brain. 

It was all going so well. Even better than before, we were getting back to normal! How could he just do that? And how could I be so STUPID again? What makes me fall for these guys that just go and break my heart!? Why do they do that? Is it something every guy has decided upon, go date Taylor, once, maybe even TWICE, and break her heart. What do they get out of it? 

I am so STUPID, i think again. And so naive!

Suddenly a beat starts going off in my head and I quickly grab a napkin and a piece of paper to my left and scribble it down, relasing the words of pain and stupidity into a little piece of paper. 

I drop a couple of fledgling tears onto the napkin before it becomes a river. Why, why, why? Shame on me for falling for it, but shame on him for doing this to me! 

And to Ashley Benson? Sure she's gorgeous but c'mon have you seen this! (A/n Taylor would sadly never say this but just for the story purposes she is) 

I stress a couple more lyrics onto the newly blackened napkin. 

It looks like World War 3 has escaped from a pen. filled with tears and marks of my obvious distress. How, how, how? Wasn't there signs? How I hadn't I read into them! 

Just another green light that took off! Now a red light, thrown into the street of many others. WHEN WILL MY GREEN LIGHT FINALLY COME? 

From behind me I hear my dressing room door open abruptly. "I heard the news. Are you alright?" It's Ed. I guess he's over whatever was going on before. 

I slowly turn around letting him see my red face full of tears and break down again. "Don't ever leave me! You're the only one who has stayed and I can't imagine life without-" he quickly grabs me into a quick hug. Swallowing me into his perfectly well made body. I love him, I love him so much. How has it taken me so long? I love him, and we've been friends for over a year. I love him more than I've ever loved any man in my life besides my dad. I love him and I hope he loves me too. 

I sob into his shoulder, not sad anymore about Taylor, but scared of not *feeling the sun from the other side. How will that make me feel, going back to the days of Drew... The day's that I hated, crying on a guitar, praying, wishing for hm to come around.

Ed separates are hug to where we are just nose to nose. I can see it in his eyes, so deep, so passionate, so full of love. He wants this just as bad as I do. 

He stared into my eyes for a long 10 seconds before finally giving in. “Taylor,” he says, his voice so low and quaint you could barley hear him, and then without a blink of an eye he pulls me close and kisses me fiercely. It was as if you just drank water for the first time in months. it was the feeling you get when you jump into a cold pool after a long day of sweating. It was everything it needed to be, and everything I didn't want it to be.  

"Stop," I finally say into his mouth. "Stop." i whisper this time. 

"What do you mean stop? Isn't this what we both want? Dammit, Taylor. you have been driving me insane with all this bloody nonsense! One second you're showing signs that you have feelings for me and then the next second it's as if nothing has changed! Well guess what, Taylor? EVERYTHING HAS! And whether you like it or not I am going to feel the taste that your lips allow one more time before you go back to being stupid about love! If you haven't noticed we are MEANT to be TOGETHER! You and I. Me and you. Taylor and Ed!" 

A tear rolls down my cheek, if only it was that easy. 

As soon as the tear hits my skin Ed is already wiping it off and this time it's not him the leans in. It's me. 

It should be weird and unnatural to kiss him, but his mouth felt far too good, as comfortable as two pieces sticking together, and like a piece of chocolate cake to even think about stopping. 

Our breaths get heavier and heavier as the kiss goes more intense. His hands in my hair, stroking each strand. And then their on my sides, pulling me closer than before. 

My hands relax on his soft head of hair, having a mind of its own. Who knows what they're doing. I'm too busy focusing on what Ed is doing to me, and the feeling that comes along with it. 

We pause for a second, not letting our lips fully depart. I catch some breath, noticing my heart rate is up 5x more than it has ever been even after a concert. 

His lips part mine and trail across my head. Up to my forehead, sending shivers down my spine. They're so soft, sweet, innocent, playful. 

Our lips are not separated for much longer when he goes in for the kill. This time doing everything a man is supposed to do with his tongue that involves the mouth area. Creating pleasure for the both of us without even having to take our clothes off. That'll come later on in the relationship, and it definitely will come down to that. I wan't to spend my whole life with this man. For better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.  

For a second Ed pauses, catching his breath. I feel his heartbeat quicken, as if hes nervous forsome reason, how is that possible? We've already laid all the cards out on the table...

He stares into my eyes the way he had before, and that's when I knew. "I love you," he said. 

"I love you, too." And this time i'm not being dtupid or naive. I know this is eacatly what I want and what he wants too. It doesn't take long after that before our lips are together again. 

So this is what it feels like, this is what it truly feels to have *felt the sun from both sides

There ya go, the last OFFICIAL chapter of Back To Everything. If you're leaving right now, let me tell you thank you, for allowing my feelings and thoughts be in your library. It is honestly surreal that more than 5 people (My mom, my two best friends, and two people that read everything) have actually took their time and read this story. Whether you enjoyed it or not. BUT if you want more there will be an epilogue coming up tomorrow morning (WHICH IS SO AMAZING I'VE BEEN WAITING TO SHARE IT WITH YOU GUYS FOR SO LONG!). If you like what happened in this chapter then I promise you'll love the next one!

It's been an honor, thank you, and i love you.

(ps if you know why i didnt out a period at the end you win)

*To feel the sun from both sides means to love and be loved back