give me love - luke brooks ★

*ABBIE'S POV*

I woke up the next morning with a terrible feeling on my chest. I wondered what it was, and then I remembered the previous night and what had happened with Courtney.

I groaned, and then I felt Luke stir beside me.

"Sorry for waking you," I apologised.

"Don't worry." He yawned, stretching his arms. "How are you feeling today?"

"Crap," I replied honestly, laughing at my bluntness.

"Don't be. Everything will work out, I promise." He hugged me tightly into his warm, toned body.

"Luke, I have a question." I said.

"What is it?" He asked.

"Do you have any idea what Courtney could have meant when she said she'd done much things worse than what happened last night? I mean, I know you've known her for a while I guess so I'm just wondering if you'd know and why it would have anything to do with me." I shrugged.

"No, why would I have a clue?" He all of a sudden got defensive.

"I just told you why, no need to get defensive." I replied, distancing myself from his body, which was kinda hard, considering we were in the same bed together.

"I'm not getting defensive, I just was curious as to why you would think that I knew." My mood was getting worse and worse the longer this conversation was going on. Not a good way to start the day.

"Well like I said I just told you why I thought you might know!" I got up out of bed and went and grabbed a towel and my wash bag. "I'm going to get a shower." I said and walked out the room before Luke could even say another word.

I didn't like it when me and Luke argued, Luke and his family are the only people I've got out here, and without them I don't like to think where I'd be.

I knocked on the bathroom door to double check that no one was in there, and when I replied I opened the door. I locked it and finally had the long awaited shower. I obviously wanted one yesterday but that didn't happen. I quickly changed what I was thinking about before I could get any further into what happened yesterday.

I let the water wash away all the pain, making me feel metaphorically speaking, clean. Of course I knew all that stuff still happened, but the shower made it seem a bit better than it was.

Once I'd got out of the shower and brushed my teeth, I left the room and traipsed back to the bedroom. I peeked around the door, and when Luke wasn't there, I sighed in relief.

I shut the door behind me and sank down on the bed. Before I knew it, I was sobbing harder than ever before. I was stupid, I know. I thought I felt better once I was in the shower, but now everything has came crashing back down on me.

I don't think anyone in this house understands how hard I am finding it right now to not get out those blades again, but I'm fighting against it as hard as I can. For Luke. Jai. Beau. Gina. Ellie. Caitlin. Ariana. For my friends. For ME.

As my shoulders tremble I can feel more tears spilling over my eyes. If anyone was to come in right now I don't know what I'd do.

Once I compose myself I sit back up on my bed, re-wrapping the towel around my body. Then someone knocks at the door.

"Come in," I say hoarsely. It's only Ariana.

"Hey," she says quietly, "would you like breakfast?"

"No, I'm good thanks. I'm just gonna stay up here."

"Wait, have you been crying?" She realises. I guess my puffy, red eyes gave it away. I didn't reply. "If you want to talk about it, I'm here. Okay?"

"Yeah." I nodded, not looking at her.

"I wanted to talk to you." She said. "You know, before.."

"Everything went south." I said for her.

"Yeah." She agreed. "Well Abbie. I admire how strong you are. How strong you have been. You are an amazing person. Look at you. You're going on with your life as if nothing happened, and I'm proud of you. So what this is the first time we met? I know I saw you that time on Skype before, but that doesn't really count. I just wanted to let you know I admire you and I think you're an amazing person. I don't think you get complimented enough, so here I am, complimenting you." She said awkwardly.

I was seriously lost for words. No one had ever said anything as beautiful as that to me before. I literally felt as if I was going to break down, but I knew that was a bad idea. Instead, I just smiled.

"Wow. I mean, thank you. That means a lot." I said, rather taken aback.

"Anytime." She smiled. "Are you excited for tomorrow then?"

"Yes!" I grinned.

"Do you wanna go shopping later with Caitlin? We're going for lunch."

"Yeah, why not. Just let me know when you're going to leave." She nodded and left the room.

I was kind of excited for tomorrow, despite the circumstances. We'd said we were going to a restaurant on their fancy dress themed night, and they'd believed us. We were gonna take them to a fancy hall which was where they were having their party, fancy dress themed. Ariana had hired some party planners to decorate the hall and we were going down tomorrow just to double check everything and make any last minute changes if needs be.

I put on some leggings and one of Luke's basketball Jersey's and left my hair to air dry, and put on no make up, leaving my skin exposed to the air, hopefully doing it some good until we went shopping. I felt sorry for everyone that had to see me like this.

Maybe I will have some breakfast, I thought.

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