MARKSON (GOT7) {COMPLETED}

Mark Pov
"Jackson... I miss him..." I said hugging my legs, this morning when i got up.

"Even though if nothing will happen... it's okay because i get to see you alot these days... If everything is fine, then I'm fine too. If he loves his life now... then everything is okay..." I said looking outside of the window.

"He used to be in this same room as me... and now that he's not here. It feels weird..." "Anyway, i got to get ready otherwise i will be late." I said and got out of bed and went to the bathroom to take a shower before heading out to see Jackson.

After that day, i would have always go to the cafe so then i could see Jackson. It's like our everyday routine. We have became alot more closer but not as close when we used to date. I know i can't be selfish and have him, since he already has a wife. I can't blame him for anything cause i love him too much but it will always hurt, thinking like that...

After the shower i head to the living room.
"Hey. I'm going out." I said and opened the door.

"Oh, okay. Sure!" Yugyeom shouted.

I head out with my earphones in ears. I head out early today. As i am walking to the cafe, i keep walking past all the places i went with Jackson. All the memories rush past my mind. It's feels nice but also sad that he isn't by my side. The memory of Jackson's birthday. The memories of Jackson taking care of me when i was feeling sick. The memory of Jackson always being by my side when i am feeling down, he would always try to comfort me by making me laugh. I miss all those memories.
"Jackson is just so precious to me..." I said, smiling as i am remembering about all these special memories.

I went to the cafe earlier this time. I ordered the same drink for myself and Jackson, I told the waiter...
"If there's someone who sits right infront of me please bring it over to my table when he arrives. Thank you." I said before leaving the counter and sat on the table where i always sit.
(Jackson...) I started thinking about Jackson. I rest my arm on the table and rest my head on my arm. I closed my eyes and enjoy Jackson's voice. (He's wild and sexy yet sweet voice.) I began to smile as i was thinking about Jackson.
"Here's your drink." I suddenly hear someone saying something so i looked up and see the waiter handing the drink to Jackson.

"Oh, you're here Jackson. Sorry. You could have told me you were here." I said and sat up.

"It's nice seeing you relax, especially when you're smiling." Jackson smiled at me. "Did you order this drink? For me?" Jackson asked.

"Yeah." I nodded.

"Thanks. But how'd you know I wanted this?" Jackson asked, confused.

"I just know." I smiled, without saying anything more.
"Can we go somewhere later? I mean if you're not free then that's okay." I asked.

"Sure. Yeah, I'm free." Jackson said with a smile.

"Thanks." I said and smiled back at him.
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I brought Jackson to the park that I use to go to with Jackson. We would always come here at night, holding hands. But now i am not holdings hands with Jackson now. These memories... all of them are so special. I didn't know i will lose Jackson so quickly... that he even forgotten about me.
"We used to come here all the time..." I said, quietly.

"That guy?" Jackson asked, somehow feeling upset.

"Yeah... that guy..." It brings happiness to me but also saddness, thinking that Jackson doesn't like me anymore and is now with someone else.

"What happened to him...? You don't have to tell me, if you don't want too. Don't force yourself..." Jackson asked.

"He just left... Now he likes someone else and is married." I forced a smile.

"Sorry for asking..." Jackson said looking down at the ground.

"No, it's okay... it's all in the past..." I forced myself to smile. (It's not okay... not being with Jackson hurts... when he doesn't remember me hurts...) I thought to myself.
(Jackson must have felt the same when i forgotten about him... Sorry Jackson... i now know how you felt.)
I walked all over the place that reminds me of Jackson and I. Our happy memories but remembering about all these memories, all by myself hurts alot...
"This amusement park... i went here with Jackson... for his birthday..." I said, quietly, without thinking what I'm doing. "Oh sorry. It must be boring you and you must be busy now. I'm sorry for wasting your time, to listen to all of my stories..." I said looking down on the ground.

"Oh no, it's okay. Don't worry. Hearing you talk feels nice but when it reminds you of painful things... i rather you not say anything about it." Jackson said.

"Thanks and sorry for sharing something so sad." I apologized.

"No, don't apologize. It's not a bad thing but seeing you upset... it's just feels weird... i just don't like the feeling. So no need to apologize." Jackson explained.
"You know... i don't want you to remember about anything that is painful to you." Jackson placed his hand on my cheeks and i just started tearing up.

"Jackson..."
"I missed you alot..."

"You idiot... Stop crying already..." Jackson said and wiped my tears away.
Jackson then pulls me into an embrace.
"Mark..."

"Just let it all out. I know it's painful for you." Jackson said, trying to comfort me.
"Seeing you like this is painful for me as well..." Jackson whispered, quietly.
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Jackson POV
Today Mark took me to alot of places that he and Jackson would always go to. Where ever he takes me, i know that they are all beautiful memories but him carrying all by himself must be painful. He looks so sad. I know Mark tries to act tough so that no one will worry about him but that makes me worry about him more. I just don't know why. I don't know why i care alot about him. I don't know why, it hurts whenever i see Mark's painful look on his face.

"We used to come here all the time..." Mark said, quietly.

"That guy?" I asked, somehow feeling a slight pain in my chest.

"Yeah... that guy..." Mark nodded.
(I wonder what happened to him?)
"What happened to him...? You don't have to tell me, if you don't want too. Don't force yourself..." I asked.

"He just left... Now he likes someone else and is married." Mark faked a smile.

"Sorry for asking..." I said looking down at the ground.

"No, it's okay... it's all in the past..." Mark forced himself to smile once again. Which i don't like seeing.

I followed Mark around.
"This amusement park... i went here with Jackson... for his birthday... Oh sorry. It must be boring you and you must be busy now. I'm sorry for wasting your time, to listen to all of my stories..." Mark said, looking sad once again.

"Oh no, it's okay. Don't worry. Hearing you talk feels nice but when it reminds you of painful things... i rather you not say anything about it." I said.

"Thanks and sorry for sharing something so sad." Mark apologized.

"No, don't apologize. It's not a bad thing but seeing you upset... it's just feels weird... i just don't like the feeling. So no need to apologize." I explained.
"You know... i don't want you to remember about anything that is painful to you." I placed my hand on Mark's cheeks without noticing. Which made Mark to tear up.

"Jackson..." Mark called out.
"I missed you alot..."

"You idiot... Stop crying already..." I said and wiped Mark's tears away.
I pulled him into an embrace because i don't like seeing him sad. I know i am selfish. I know i already have a wife but just somehow i feel like Mark is way important to me.
"Mark..."

"Just let it all out. I know it's painful for you." I said, trying to comfort him.
"Seeing you like this is painful for me as well..." I whispered.
(It really is painful for me to see you like this... whenever i see you, you will always look so sad. I want to make you happy...)
End of chapter~
I hope you enjoy it. My mind has been blank for the past few weeks so I'm not sure what i should write. I just don't know how to write this story anymore. It's alot easier for my other one. And plus i am going to make another story for Markson but this one have to be finished first. I'm still thinking if i am going to publish my other Markson story yet. I'm not sure if it is good enough. Anyway i hope you are always looking forward to my story. Love you all. Thank you guys. :D