I'm Learning ; Petekey

Mikey's POV:

The day was basically the same. Getting introduced to the class and then learning. The best part about this school is the teachers all use sign language in class so I dont have to have a LSA. I feel having the LSA in my old school made it so that no one wanted to be friends with the kid who had a teacher with him 24/7, but luckily I dont have to deal with it! Me and Pete kept sitting next to each other in the lessons. In two of the lessons we had Ryan was with us. I felt so bad that we couldn't be in the same class. Ryan had to be in a higher form than me because hes more able whilst I'm not.

Anyway we had Ryan in two of our lessons. He sat with us and laughed and smiled so much around us. He told us that he made some friends named Ray and Brendon. Apparently Brendon has ADHD but is actually really smart along with Ryan. I had Pete so I didn't mind. We hadn't talked about the holding of the hands after the first time so I think Pete didn't care that much about it! I on the other hand was trying extremely hard to forget it. I wanted it to mean nothing to me, I didn't want it to mean so much to me.

Last lesson of the day was music. I've never done music before. I would always go to the unit with Ryan but today is different. The teacher said I'd be able to read the music paper and play the piano with it. Me and guess who, Pete shared a keyboard as there wasn't many left and attemped to play to piece of music the teacher had given us. For me it had been quite easy to pick up the keys, it took me a few minutes before I was making small mistakes. Though for Pete it was another story. He was struggling to use both hands. He had mastered both hands but was trying to put them together.

Pete rolled away from the keyboard. He obviously had enough. Though before I knew it he was back at my side handing me a piece of paper. On it, it said "How are you so good?! Please help me" I nodded towards him and stood behind him. I placed my hands on top of his hands. Placing them gentally in the right position. I pointed to each finger for him to press down whilst I pressed the other fingers. He quickly caught onto one hand and I used his other hand to play.

Once we finsihed playing the part he turned his head towards me and looked at me. I smiled at him whilst he smiled back. I felt the butterflies rise in my belly again. This can't be happening, I can't like Pete. Before I knew it my lips were on his. I was kissing Pete Wentz. I had placed my lips on Pete Wentz, oh no. The worst thing was he wasn't kissing back. I took my lips back off his and looked at him. I couldn't read his emotions. I quickly rushed out the classroom towards the toilets. I decided to sit in the toilets until the end of the day.

Finally after 20 minutes of sitting in the bathroom the finally bell went. I gave it a few minutes before I rushed back to the classroom and retreaved my stuff. Luckily no one was in the class room. I jogged my way over to the car and hopped inside. My mum signed to me "Wheres Pete?" I shrugged and replied "I think he took the bus" She nodded and started the car. I need to talk to Gerard.

Once we arrived home I noticed that Gerard wasn't home yet. I groaned and went into mine and Ryan's room, locking the door so Ryan couldn't enter. I quickly jumped on my bed and screamed into my pillow. I messed it up, I fucked it up. I fucked up any friendship I could have had with Pete. We were gonna be really good friends but then I go and fucking kiss the boy. Why did I do that? Why the hell did I kiss him? I don't wanna see him, I dont wanna know what he'll do. He just kissed the deaf boy, the boy who can't even hear his own voice. Hes going to hate me. He didn't kiss back of course he hates me.

After a while of crying into my pillow I felt the door slam close. I rushed to my door and looked outside to see Gerard had entered the building. I unlocked the door and rushed down stairs, into my brothers arms. We hugged for a few minutes. "Whats wrong Mikeyway?" He asked once he saw my puffy red eyes "Can we go to your room?" He nodded and lead me up to his room. "Go" He smiled towards me even though I feel he wasnt happy himself.