I'm Learning ; Petekey

Sorry for the lack of petekey in this chapter 

Gerard's POV:

I knocked on Frank's front door and waited for someone to open the door. It was a few seconds before the door had opened. Once it was open it revealed Frank Anthony Iero Jr. My very own boyfriend. I suddenly became very nervous to talk to him. He stood infront of each other for a few minutes before Frank broke it. "hey babe, you okay?" He asked, I shook my head quickly and ran into his arms. He closed the door behind me and lead me into the living room. We sat in each others embraces on the sofa. The tears slowly started to fall down my face. "Oh my, Gerard talk to me baby whats wrong? I'm sorry for getting angry at you the other day." He rushed out. I squeezed him harder and tried to calm down a little. Frank rubbed my back and I began to think out what I was about to say.

"So b-basically, I-I'm sorry that we didn't d-do anything last night" I took a deep breath, ready to confess. "I-I dont, I um I dont feel c-confident in my b-body. I hate my body. I-its, more serious than b-before. I have b-body dysphoria" I calmed down a little and started again. "Its not that I dont wanna have sex with you, I just dont want you to see me and my bits, I just dont feel confident with it. I'm sorry" I pulled away from the hug to look at his face. He had a few tears escaping his eyes. "Babe dont cry" I said wiping away his tears. He nodded and said "I'm sorry you feel like that baby. Are you MTF or agender?" He asked brushing a strand out of my face. It took me a while to answer. I dont want him to hate me, I want him to accept me.

"A-agender" I wispered. "Look at me Gerard" He said calmly. I brought my head up and looked into his eyes. His eyes were still full of love and acceptance like before. "Hey, its going to be okay baby, I accept you, I will never really know how you feel but I'll guess that you are full of hate for your self. To me you're perfect and I'll never ever judge you and your choices" I smiled at his reaction. Deep down I knew he'd accept me but there was that half of me that believed he'd hate me. "Thank you Frank, thank you so much. Could you possibly use the they them pronouns and you can keep calling me Gee and Gerard" I requested hugging him. "Anything for you geebear. Just to get it right when I talk about you, you're my partner not my boyfriend yeah?" He questioned. I nodded "Yes please" we hugged for a little while before pulling apart.

We spent a few seconds looking into each others eyes, I leant in for a kiss. I felt safe in his embrace. I felt like I belonged. I felt more comfortable than I ever had before kissing Frank. We kissed for a while. We kept going until Frank pulled away. "This may be awkward for you but would you feel confident to give me a blowjob? You can stay fully clothed I'd be the naked one" I was a little shocked that he said that. "I wouldn't mind. I know you and your horny mind wouldn't wait so yeah I'll give you a blowjob every now and then, and if I ever do become confident with my dick I'll let you return the favour" We laughed at the awkward conversation. "I'm sorry for the awkwardness of that but I needed to know" I nodded and we kissed again.

"Do you wanna watch some movies and cuddle together?" I asked Frank. "Hells yeah!" I closed my eyes and shook my head "Never again, never say that again" Frank giggled and went and got some blankets whilst I put on our favourite movie, which was obviously 'The Night Before Christmas' Before Frank had came back I turned on the coffee machine, ready to make us some nice home made coffee. I made the coffee and placed them next to the bowl of cheese puffs I had prepared whilst waiting for the coffee.

"I'm back" He said whilst stricking a pose in the doorframe. I placed a kiss on his cheek and we sat down and watched the movie.

-_-_-_-_-_-_-Time Skip-_-_-_-_-_-_-

We had an amazing time watching the film together and stealing a kiss of each other. The movie had come to end and Frank had been exteremly quite for the last 10 minutes of the movie. I looked to the left of me and saw him cuddled up in my side, asleep. The image was quite adorable if I do say so myself. I didn't want to move and wake him but mother nature thought it was time to need the little boys room. "Frankie" I whispered and he twisted in his seat. "I need the loo baby, I need you to get up" I tried to say. I know something that'll make him move. "Daddy, move please" I said, he hates being called daddy even though I know he loves it. "Geeee no!" He explained."Fine I'll just pee here" With that Frank jumped up and let me rush off to the toilet.

Once I'd finished in the toliet I walked out and saw Frank sat of the coffee table picking at his nails. "You okay baby?" I asked. He was silent for a few seconds before saying "I love you" I awed at him and said the logical response back. "I love you too, baby" He stood up quickly and moved towards me. "No, I really love you Gerard, a lot. And I wanted this to be more special but, will you go to prom with me?" I laughed at him. Prom? I didn't know he was one of those people. "Of course Frankie"

I picked Frank up in my arms twisting him around once coming to a stop we kissed each other. "I love you more than anything" I explained and placed him on his feet "I love you more than anyone" I looked over to the clock and realised that it was around 10pm. "Oh shit, I better get going. I love you babes, thanks so much" Frank nodded and kissed my cheek as I went to leave back home. I waved bye from the window of my car and drove off back home.

Once I arrived home I saw Mikey and Ryan sitting in the front room playing some random games on the XBOX. It seemed like they were playing some shitty version of Mario. I sat on the single chair and watched them compete for the wining place. It seemed Mikey was winning but Ryan decided at the last minute to squirt Mikey with his black ink, talking the lead, becoming first and fisting the air.

Mikey made an imhumanly noise and I laughed at it. I find it quite funny when my brother makes weird noises like that, sorry Mikes!

"How'd it go Gerard? You were over there for a while!" Mikey signed. "He accepts me" I signed and walked into the kitchen to make myself more coffee  "Thats amazing! Whats your pronouns?" He asked I smiled as he actually cared to make me happy. "They/them! Thanks Mikey" I looked at him and he smiled. "Anything for you, you have done so much for me, you derseve the world!" I chuckled at his choice of words. "Good one Mikes!" I know he was being dead serious though. Whilst I was pouring out my coffee Mikey gave me a little shove, I looked over my shoulder and saw him giggling. "Be careful little boy"

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I came out to a kid in class today. I felt happy doing it. I mean I haven't told anyone before I just tell them to use the they/them pronouns. But hay guess what... IM AGENDER! Hi yes. I'm Nage, panromantic agender they/them :) Should be back to Petekey next chapter!!

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