Stranded

3 weeks, 5 days

Austin POV

S O S Please someone help me

I Am So Done.

It's not healthy... for me to feel this way

Everyone's Fighting has been driving me insane, it's only been three weeks for heaven's sake! As soon as one thing goes right something else goes wrong, why can't we all just be fine and dandy? Having to put up with nearly everyone crying- oh wait let me correct that- Having to put up with everyone crying, one person thinking the other hates them vise versa. 3 weeks is really enough to break apart friendships and relationships, Trames was going so so well. Though I never expected James to get so angry, it was like one minute everything was okay we were all smiling and having fun then the next minute he's shouting at Tristan filled with anger. Now I can't blame this one on the weather being too hot because since the rain it's been perfect temperature, so I'm confused to which he randomly got angry.

I saw how hurt and upset Tristan looked when he walked off, i tried talking to James after Tris had walked off but he refused to even look at me demanding that he needed time alone. I wasn't going to be part of another fight so obviously I walked away to sit by the fire until the others got back, Brad and Con didn't say anything though I have a feeling that they heard the most part of the 'fight'. I saw Levi and Drew try to talk to Tris and James but neither said anything, everything is just so awkward now that the two strongest have broken. I should have expected it, I only hope they aren't going to break up it's something so silly for them to break up.

One thing good happened i guess, Nate's finally happy. I'm happy about that, after all he's been through broken to the point of attempted suicide. He's found someone- no two people- to make him happy again, but I really think being home will do him better. I think it will do us all better, maybe one day we'll leave this Island and look back it with our families. I wonder how they'll react when we get there, I'd probably be the first to cry and I probably wouldn't be embarrassed. I think I might make a book about the time we spent there and how we survived, maybe we could come back it would be perfect for anniversaries or holidays. I have never seen this island before, what if we could name it? Claim it as ours, we could come back whenever we want knowing that we could get home just as easily. Maybe we could set up little houses and places for us to stay in while we are here, it would bring us back all the memories of the time we spent here. All the relationships formed, Friendships made stronger, working together, maybe even writing songs.

Oh boy can my imagination go wild..

But We have to have hope that someone will find us otherwise we'll sink into a spiral of sadness and despair. I don't want anymore of that, I guess that's why I have tried the be the strong one in this situation helping everyone else. Reminding them that we have to keep hoping and staying strong. Which is why I'm going to solve the Trames situation. I'm not going to sit back and let my brothers be upset over nothing but a stupid fall out.

Looking around I see Levi, Drew and Nate cuddled up under a tree - well the tree they are always under- making me smile, Brad and Connor wondered off into the woods not too long ago, James is under the tree that he and tris have sat under since we arrived on this island he seems to be thinking quite hard, finally Tris is sat his head buried in his crossed arms resting on his knees pulled up to his chest. Well might as well talk to Tris first.

With a sigh I stand up and walk over to Tristan who doesn't look up, I'm assuming he doesn't hear me or he is simply ignoring me but that doesn't stop me from crouching down in front of him. "Tris?" I ask getting his attention, he looks up with red eyes and red cheeks stating that he had been crying. I rest my hand on his forearm with a sad smile "Hey can we talk for a bit?" I ask, he sighs nodding. He stands up wiping his eyes before following me as I lead him somewhere more private, when I feel we are good few feet away from the others out of hearing distance and the trees blocking our sight i turn to him. I nod at the large rock on the ground for him to sit on in which he does as I lean on a tree, "What's the matter? I don't mean you being upset because of James I mean In general, since we got here I've noticed your odd behaviour at first i thought it was because of your thing for James but then even after that you still had that.. offness about you" I say, he stares down at the ground before replying.

"I'm scared I'm not good enough for him" He mumbles, I furrow my eyebrows frowning at what he said. "I've always been insecure about myself but not as much I just brushed it off because nearly everyone is insecure about something aren't they? Then when me and James started dating all my insecurities came back, my mind- the little voice in my head- started telling me I'm not good enough. It picked out all my insecurities telling me that's why James would leave me sooner or later, it told me that he deserved so much better. I've always looked up to James since I met him, He just seemed perfect in my eyes. Then look at me, a tall skinny chicken legged kid that can't sing and makes jokes about everything so no one can tell something's wrong, James can get so much better. There are girls swooning over him all the time he doesn't need me.. I'm scared he'll leave me for someone better, I didn't even realise i was being so distant. Now he's pissed at me and- and-" he stutters before he sob ripples through his body, I rush over to him immediately.

I hug him the best I can rubbing his back, "I-i just want to be good enough f-for him" he cries

It takes a short while before he's calmed down his sobs reduced to sniffles, I look up when I hear a twig snap. Tris ether doesn't hear it or ignores it, though I'm not sure what's he'd say if I told him it was James. James with a pained sad expression on his face, he'd obviously heard what Tristan had said.

I bite my lip tapping Tristan's arm, he looks up and freezes seeing James. He's quick to wipe his face standing up from my embrace, He keeps his eyes on the floor as he tries to walk past avoiding any possible contact but only to be stopped by James.

"Tris..I'm sorry for lashing out on you like that. Why didn't you say something? I love you I would never leave or judge you for being scared. I love all your perfect imperfections, I love you for making me feel a new feeling that I only want more of. I want more of you, sure there may be girls out there throwing themselves at me or maybe even guys but that doesn't change the fact that I only want you. You are perfect in my eyes too, and don't get me started on how well you can sing. Please tell me when something's wrong, I didn't know you were acting that way because of me.." James says looking down at the end

Tristan hugs him tightly hiding his face in James' neck "I love you so much"

I grin, I think they've forgotten I'm even here. But that doesn't matter, they're okay. Trames is still going strong, just as I was about to walk away I hear tris say something almost so quiet I'm sure James wouldn't even hear it standing right in front of him.

"Please don't leave me"