Stranded

Brad's POV -unedited-

My eyes widen "Uh i didn't mean that, i mean I did- no wait ugh I'm sorry!"

He blushes deeply looking anywhere but my face, I bite my tongue. "I'm so sorry. You probably hate me now" he stands up looking ready to run, he looks me in the eye before looking away with teary eyes. "I'll go"He mumbles going to walk away, he said he loved me. He actually loves me, He freakin loves me! I grab his hand before he can move away, "I don't hate you" I say

He stays silent wiping his face as a single tear escapes, my heart almost breaks. Pulling him down, I move so he's sat in front of me. He continues to look down wiping his face every few seconds, "Con look at me" I say gently. He shakes his head hiding his face in his hands as his body starts to shake "Con I don't hate you" 

"y-you s-should" he cries, I bite my lip. It actually hurts to see him cry, "But I don't" 

"I-I didn't even t-tell y-you I'm g-gay. I'm n-not e-even gay!" 

I look at him in confusion, "Con what are you talking about?"I ask. He continues to cry, shaking my head I pull him into a hug. "Con please tell me" I plead, he sniffles wiping his eyes again. "I don't care if you're gay, bi, or whatever. Well I do care but I don't mind- anyway the point Is You're my best friend I'll never hate you" I say with a small smile, he mumbles something under his breath sniffling again. "What was that?" I ask, he shakes his head. I sigh knowing i'm probably not going to get an answer, "Was It true?"

He looks up his eyes still glossy and turning red, "that you love me?" He moves away from my embrace. "I'm sorry" He mumbles

"Don't be" I smile, he looks at me in confusion "I think I might love you too"

Nate's POV

I stare at water where I was going to end it, this same path on a clear day. I was actually going to end my 18 years of life, I'm not even an adult yet. I Haven't gone into my twenties. I was going to do it, I could have died. If I hadn't left stupid prints on the sand they would never have known, If I never existed on the face of this planet none of this would have happened. I look down at my pale-ish arms, my wristbands covering most of my wrists. The faint scars still there reminding me of the internal battle I faced not too long ago, but I made a promise to myself. Never again, I will never do it again. Since then I haven't been that bad but now the craving is back and I don't know why, I have everything I want right? A career, a boyfriend-no two boyfriends, best friends to share it with. Everything. So why do I feel so empty?

I sit down on a rock holding my head in my hands, why am I dizzy? 

"Nate?"

I can't hear properly, what is going on? This isn't a panic attack, I can breathe. I can breathe it's fine right? I'm okay. "Nate?" I'm getting lightheaded, but I can breathe. I'm not panicking, someone is touching me. I can faintly hear my name being called out, but I'm fine. I can breathe, I'm not panicking. I'm okay. Someone is moving me about but it's like I can't feel anything, I'm fine. It's okay. I can breathe. My hands are moved from my head allowing me vision but I can't see it's too bright, I'm fine. It's okay. It's not a panic attack, I can breathe. I'm being moved like someone is carrying me, I feel wet. But it's fine. I can breathe. It's okay.

Until suddenly it's not okay. 

I can't breathe. My chest hurts, my head is spinning from lack of oxygen and my thoughts. It's not okay. I can't see, I feel light. I'm not okay, I'm panicking. I feel myself cough making my chest tighten more. I can't breathe. I'm not okay. I'm panicking.

Then suddenly it goes black.

...

I wake up to a massive headache and a bright sky, I close my eyes with a groan. What the hell happened? "Nate? Babe are you okay?"I hear someone ask, my eyes open once again to see Drew, Austin and Levi all hovering above my face in a circle. "what?" Is all I can get out my mouth "What happened?" Levi asks, I sit up making them all move out the way. "I-I don't know" I mumble playing with my hands, "everything was fine" I was okay, I wasn't panicking.

"Nate you were in the middle of water and not breathing that's not fine!" Drew exclaims clear that he had been crying, come to think of it. They all look like they've been crying, wait did he say water? I was in water? "Why do you look so confused did you not know?" Austin asks, I was on land. I was sat on a rock. 

"I-I w-wasn't I-I was o-on  a rock, on land" I stutter looking at them, they look at each other with a look I can't make out.

"So you didn't know you were in water?" Austin asks and I shake my head, 

"I can barely remember anything"I mumble

"Let's get you back to the beach" Austin says standing up, Drew and Levi help me stand letting me use them as support to walk back to the part of the beach we now call home. What. Was. That? 

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Bronnor will appear more do not worry! Hope you guys are enjoying this story I really Like writing it, if I like where I'm going with the ending I might write a sequel but I'm not sure. 

About the new Nevi bullying book by the time you have done reading this the first maybe two parts will be available for ya to read, also remember it's a sensitive book but I kind of want to show how bullying can have an impact on people and also depression. It's Called Safer With you and I started writing it last year so somethings might have changed since then, it includes 5sos a little heads up.

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