Hello Internet ? Phan

"Hey guys."
I watched his videos. I was a huge fan of Amazingphil. His intro was always the same for each video.

He started uploading videos a year ago. It was 2007, and I was addicted to a guy I had never met?

It was weird. I had never felt anything like this before.

I fell asleep after a marathon of his videos, and fell into a vivid dream.

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He was there. His pale skin, long black hair, and piercing blue eyes.. He introduced himself, but I interrupted him.

"I know who you are." I said. His hands were shaking as mine were on his cheeks.

I pulled him in and felt his breath on my lips as we were only centimeters away from kissing.

He told me he was scared. He had never kissed a boy before. I went in closer and tried to kiss him.

He pulled away. I apologized.

He smacked me across the face as I fell onto the floor.

/

I woke up, feeling hot. It felt so real. My cheek hurt like he actually slapped me, but it was only a dream.

My face was wet. I had been crying.

"Daniel?" A voice said.

I wiped away the tears and pulled myself together, answering the door.

"Hey Mum."

"I heard crying, I thought I'd come make sure you were okay."

"I am. I just.." I tried to explain, but stuttered. "Bad dream.."
Yeah... That works. Not like I've used that excuse before.

"Alright, we'll get ready for school." She left.

School. Great. Just what I need.

Mum didn't know about Amazingphil, but a teacher caught me drawing a picture to send in for Draw Phil Naked, last spring. She gave me a warning, but made it public. The popular assholes in the same class weren't gonna let that go...

I got ready and walked to school.
15 and no permit....No car....Not even a bike. I'm just the definition of loser.

When I got to school, I put my bag in my locker.

"Hey guys, look! It's Faggot Howell!"

"Does your mum know about your obsession with that loser?"

"Did you go play gay chicken this summer?"

"Hey, where you going, attention whore?"

I walked away. It was like this every day since I made the mistake of drawing in class.

I went to class and two of the assholes were in there.

The first day of my sophomore year and it was already great.

I sat down in my seat and waited for class to begin. Since the teacher was in the room, they surely wouldn't try anything. I hoped...

The bell rang after everyone was in class.

"Good morning, class. I hope you all had a lovely summer. Shall we share what fun things we did?"

I felt those pricks staring back at me. They had already guessed almost exactly how my summer went. Mrs Thompson went around the room and had everyone share.

"Daniel? Would you like to share?"
I stood up. I really shouldn't have bothered with explaining, but I didn't want to make a scene.

"I went to Rawtenstall on vacation with my mum and my brother."