Shawn Mendes Imagines

A/n - hey, it's Zehna. For this imagine, Shawn and you are together but he doesn't show that much care for you anymore, now that he is busy with work.

- Zehna❤️

The middle of the night. You're just outside your friends house, about to call your sister to pick you up but your phone dies.

You've just spent hours working, last minute, on a project due for tomorrow. You're thinking how to get home but your brain can't work properly since it's freezing cold and you're so tired you can barely keep your eyes open.

Just your luck, you feel slight drops of water on you which turn into heavy drops. You don't bother finding shelter because by now your already soaked.

As you walk down the steps of your friend's porch, you hear the bush next to you rustle. You brush that off your shoulders and carry on walking. Well... limping rather, because you're too tired to walk properly.

You walk down the street in the pouring rain, starting to think about how things are going on with you and Shawn. Terrible. The lies he tell, the secrets he keep. It's too much. You wish he would prove that he loves you.

The middle of the night. No one's awake. Every street light is broken on the road your on. No light is to be seen apart from the moon which doesn't help much. You're walking as you hear footsteps and you look back. You see nothing but you still feel like someone is following you.

You plug your earphones in your iPod, trying not to get them wet, and wear them. Luckily you're wearing a hoodie. No one's around so you decide to sing your heart out along with the song.

"And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars,
Collecting your jar of hearts,
And tearing love apart,"

By this point, you can feel a difference of the drops on your face. You can feel warm tears on them, despite the cold heavy rain.

"You're gonna catch a cold,
From the ice inside your soul,
So don't come back for me,
Who do you think you are?"

Your emotions are on the edge of nothing. You have to let everything out, no one would hear anyways.

"WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME SHAWN?! I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU! WHAT DID I DO TO YOU?! SHAWN STAY WITH ME, PLEASE! PLEASE, YOU DON'T KNOW THAT THE PAIN IS REAL!"

You can't help but fall to the floor. Crying your eyes out, still thinking too hard to figure out what you did wrong. The thing is, you didn't do anything at all. It's Shawn.

The little he cares about you.

The blandness he shows around you.

To you and you only.

You're the least of his worries.

You aren't anything to Shawn.

Not anymore, anyways.

These negative thoughts ring in your head as you stand up. Your eyes sore and vision blurred from crying. Your legs can barely hold you up. You don't know where you are. You don't know how to get home.

You turn your head towards your left and squint your eyes. You see two lights, parallel to each other and you start to hear faint beeps. Gradually, the lights become bigger and closer, and the beeps become louder and stronger.

Realisation hits you and you perceive that you're in the middle of a road, in the middle of the night. You perceive that a car is about to hit you at full speed, clearly unable to stop.

You can't move and everything seems to slow down and fall quiet. The heavy raindrops can't be heard. The car horns have become faint again.

That's it. That's the end. It's not like you mattered to anyone anyways.

"Y/N!"

Right until you hear your name from the person you've never thought it would be. You feel a hard push and hear a loud crash. You see you're not in front of a speeding car and you've definitely not crashed into it.

You stand up and approach the accident in front of you, too scared to go any closer, too scared to see who you think it is.

"Shawn." You say in barely a whisper.

There he is, blood and shattered glass surrounding him. The rain making him look worse than he actually is. Your eyes once again well up with tear and you once again fall on the ground.

You rest your head on his chest, not caring about anything else but being with him right now.

"Y/n..."

"Shawn, shawn, why would you do that, why would you risk your life for me." You say what you can and stare into his slightly open eyes. His eyes show love, care, sincerity and sympathy.  

"I do anything for someone I love. I love you, y/n. You and you only."

"I love you too, Shawn, so much."

You gently place your lips on his and you both smiled.

Then he was gone.

Gone with a smile.

Gone in the middle of the night.