Hit and Run (BumbleBee x Reader)

Mixed Emotions

"I dunno..." You answered, not really being dishonest, you weren't fully sure of your own feelings then. They were a mixture of fear, pain, and anger. Fear for your life, pained from the lives lost and angered from lives lost.

"(F/n)-"

"Fine? Bad? I don't know! ...People died in front of my eyes, I don't really feel all that well right now..." You interrupted, harsher than you had intended. Catching yourself as you said that, you threw your head back and bit your lip, "I'm... I'm sorry." You sighed. It's not like you to have sudden outbursts of rage like that, you always had ways of controlling your emotions. The silence that came after those words left your mouth was nerve wracking, not an annoyed feeling, but a sad one. Shaming yourself as you flipped your head back over to your hands, you sat properly in your seat and put your head in your hands.

"I'm sorry, I just don't... Understand..." You said as small tears perked up in the corners of your eyes.

"Don't understand, what?" He questioned calmly. You sat there for a minute, thinking long and hard of what to say exactly.

"I don't understand why I'm so important, that you! Something as powerful and great like you! Would take a risk of losing their life for something as weak as me. I don't understand why I'm SO important to a mission that only a couple hours ago, I had no part in, a mission that literally depends on you and the other Autobots to save the world. I don't... Understand... Why you chose..." It felt like you were building up every word for the past half hour, "... Me..." You whispered.

Hands shaking ever so slightly, breath fading and eyes darting around your legs, you awaited nervously for a responds, "I may not have all the right answers... But I can tell you this... It wasn't a mistake... That we met." He said thoughtfully. As you sat there, contemplating his words, you wondered what he meant by that. Though you had an idea of what he was trying to say, it didn't seem that's what he meant. If he was meaning what you thought, then it would be, it wasn't a mistake as in he knew you would be helpful. But if it wasn't, and the meaning you were leaning towards, was unknown.

"Maybe not..." You muttered just loud enough for him to hear. As the conversation ended with you saying those words, you had finally come aware of where you were.

Turning your attention away from the radio and to the window to your right, your eyes flicked across the new land in front of you. The small buildings stopped as you came up on a bridge, looking down and into the water was a little difficult despite your meaningless attempts. But as you stopped trying to look straight down into the rushing water, you blinked up just a bit and seen the moonlight shining over the small waves forming in the water a bit away.

"If you look to your left, ladies and gentleman, you will see the Hudson River. And the same to your right." BumbleBee announced jokingly. Letting out a little laugh, you smiled at the radio before turning back to the water below. If you could have seen yourself right then, you would have mistaken yourself for a kid looking in on a candy store. Eyes lit up like a Christmas tree, face basically pressed against the glass and a wide but sweet grin on your lips. In the morning, you could understand why a view like that would get old, but at night... it was beautiful.

Leaning your head on the doorway, you stared off into nothingness as you sat slouched over in your seat. And although you couldn't see barely any stars in the city, you didn't mind it. Seeing the stars were one of your favorite things to look at by all means! It was just worth it to see the view from the tops of skyscrapers, sleep in an amazing hotel as you looked down at all the small figures of walking by citizens from the high windows and not to mention, New York pizza? Who could turn that down!