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He was a nerd and she was too.
They had known each other since 1st grade.
His name was Shawn.
Her's was Abi.
They were 15 now and had been best friends wanting to be more for two years but neither brought it up.
Then this happened.....
Abi;
"I just want him to realize how much I like him and then maybe he will like me back" she told her cousin Davi "Girl you don't even realize how much he already likes you. I mean seriously, he looks at you like you hung the moon." All I could think about is Shawn, I mean we have been friends for so long and it was just that for years but one time when he was sleeping over at my house in 7th grade-I have a couch in my room that he sleeps on- and when he fell asleep he started talking in his sleep, talking about a girl and for the first time with Shawn I felt jealous.
Two years earlier
Shawn;
To Abisour
Hey Abi, can I come over pleeeeeeeeease?
To Shawniiiii
Hey,and I guess so..meet me in the front in five.
Flashback over...(it will continue later in this book)
Abi;
My cousin went home and so I went up to my room and turned the music up -the song was Make it Rain by Ed Sheeran- Shawn got me obsessed like he always does with music, all he has to do is sing one line and i'm hooked. He has the voice of an angel and if I could listen to him sing all day I would. About four months ago Shawn started singing on this app called Vine, well actually he started on YouTube but he didn't start booming until vine started and now he has over 20,000 followers on the thing and that number keeps rising my the minute. He deserves it though he works so hard and he has such a gift.
I get pulled out of my thoughts by my mother yelling at me to come down stairs. Her and I haven't been very close since she and my father got a divorce when I was in 6th grade and now, for the past 3 years I switch back and fourth between houses each week.
I go into the living room and she is sitting at the coffee table with a serious look on her face
"hey honey we need to talk" she says weakly
"Okay, are you alright?" I ask concerned
"Yes baby. You know how Tom has been going back and fourth from Alberta to work at the carpet shop?" (Tom is my moms boyfriend)
"Well yeah I guess so..." I say confused on how this had anything to do with the topic.
"Well I have been thinking very hard about it and i'm going to move there so he doesn't have to keep going back and fourth and be alone while he is there" she stated without emotion.
"What are you saying mom?!" I ask tearing up.
"Abi i'm leaving. I'm moving to Alberta" she states.
I'm crying now. My mother is leaving me for a man.
I run out of the house without saying anything and I run straight to Shawn's house.
I get to his house and climb up to his room since it was around 9:00. I knock on his window and he lets me in seeing that i'm crying and instantly hugs me trying to calm me not even asking what happened, just trying to make it all better like he always does.
After about five minutes of clinging to him I stop crying as though I had ran out of tears and he then asks me what happened. I tell him everything and then the flood gates open once more because I can't help but blame myself. Shawn just held me closer. I am hugging him as though if he let go I would fall apart and disappear, but maybe that is what I should have let happen. At this point I don't want to be alive anymore. I just want to end it forever because what is life knowing that your own mother didn't care enough for you to stay even if it meant no longer having a man.
I sleep over at Shawn's house not wanting to be in the same place as my mom since she so clearly wanted to be away from me.
Shawn;
Abi came over around 9:00 crying and it killed me. I brought her as close as possible wishing I could make all of her demons disappear. When she explained what happened and what her mom did it hurt me seeing her have to go through that. It really hurt me seeing her in pain. I wanted so badly to kiss her and tell her everything would be okay but I couldn't promise that because I didn't know what would happen next I could just hope for Abi's sake that her mom would change her mind but all of the time I have known her she has never given up on a decision; like when she decided to get divorced with Abi's father-which that alone almost killed my best friend that is when Abi started self harming but she recently stopped. I don't want this to be a reason she started again. I bring Abi into my arms and sorry her to my bed, I pull her trembling body close to me and I start humming her favorite song.
When I wake up in the morning Abi is gone and I know that she probably went back to her house knowing if my parents walked in then I would get yelled at since I didn't ask if she could spend the night last night. I get up and throw on a hoodie and tell my mom that I am waking to Abi's house. When I get to her house which is only a block or so from mine, I walk to the side of her house and to her window since the house is a single story. I get to the outside of her room and open her already unlocked window. I climb through the glass and see Abi sitting on her bed crying again. I walk over and sit next to her and something catches my eye. A razor. I stand up and walk to grab the piece of metal and walk into her bathroom and flush the damned thing down the toilet with absolutely no regret in the action. I walk over to Abi once more and grab her wrist carefully not sure wether she harmed herself or not and I slide her sleeves up seeing my worst nightmare