Abi;
Shawn bought me three long sleeve shorts from Hot Topic and the we went to Aeropostale to buy two more shirts and two pairs of jeans.
I don't understand why Shawn doesn't get tired of me, I get so tired of myself. He is always so nice to me, it makes no sense.
I hurt myself again today, it had been months since I did it last. I hate myself so much. It's all my fault that my mom is leaving, she just doesn't want to be with me anymore, she doesn't want to have to deal with me. I wouldn't want to deal with me either. I'm not sure I can take her leaving.
Two hours later
We got bored after we ate at Japan Café so we started to head to Shawn's car
After Shawn dropped me off I went straight to my room and went into my bathroom to take a shower. I turned the water and waited for it to heat up while I looked around for my stash of blades. The water quickly got warm so I got in forgetting about the metal objects. I wished my hair and my body being very careful with my cuts.
I turn off the water and I dry off with my Peter Pan towel. I put on my shorts and my Neverland shirt and start looking for my blades again and the Shawn calls.
Phone call
Shawn-hey Abi i'm just checking up on you.
abi-i'm fine Shawn but I hand to go.
Shawn-why is that?
Abi- because I have to just let it go.
Shawn-i'm coming over.
Abi-no!
Shawn-you can spend the night with me.
Abi-i'm not allowed to.
Shawn-since when has that been important?
Abi-since right now. I have to go. Bye.
Shawn-fine, I love you though. Make good choices.
End of call
Why did he call? Why did he have to ducking call?!
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FanfictionHaving parents that are divorced is hard, it's even harder when your mom decides to leave. Self harm has always been my go to and now my best friend Shawn decided that it's his turn to help me. This is gonna be a long year.
