"I am not anymore in this phase!" I shout at my best friend. "I swear, you are. And I don't like this phase." "If it would be like this, why would you don't like this phase?" "Chris, I already told you this once. Because these are fake feelings! You are only obsessed with the idea to be in love with her!" Oh yeah, always a good idea to listen to William. "But this phase is over, so don't worry!" "Proof me, that this phase is over. Damn, never ever hurt your girlfriend, this is rule number one!"
I am mad and I could feel that my eyes burned. My best friend doesn't believe me? AGAIN?! "How should I proof you this?! How should I show you that I am not crushing on someone? Don't you see this? I have a girlfriend! This is proof enough. I love her with all my heart and fucking forget the idea, that I still have this phase to be in 'love' with Eva Mohn! Chris and Eva is over! Eva and Chris is over! Forever! Don't you see, that I am happy? I am fucking happy, bro! I won, because I changed! I am not a fuckboy anymore and I have a heathly relationship! Don't dare again to say that I still have this fucking disgusting phase!" I say and tears runs down my cheeks. I cry in front of my best friend.
I know that I lied. I am not in this phase, this is true. Why? Because it was more than just a damn phase.
But William didn't believe me. So I was the good friend, and believed him with 'not having feelings for Eva'.
"Chris, why are you crying then?"
"Because I fucking love Emma. Is this proof enough for you?"
"Yes, it's proof enough for me."
I nod.
"Proof enough for me, that you are crazy." William says.
"Aren't we all crazy?" I ask him and roll my eyes annoyed. "I don't know, are we?" He ask cold back and took his cigarettes out. "I have a question, Chris." "What for a question?" I ask and look to the dirty ground. "What if, when suddenly a random girl asks you for being in a relationship with her. Would you say that you are happy? That you have a girlfriend and that you love her with all your heart?" "Of course I would." "Right answer."
He hugs me. I still have tears in my eyes.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
I am jogging around the area and hearing some music at the same time. At the moment, I am always hearing to depressing music. Christoffer, you little softie.
I try to distract me from everything with workouts for the army. And with everything I mean Emma. Because she is my everything. Haha, so cheesy, Chris. You are so cheesy.
