Stuck in the Middle

"Coffee, please", Lana answers my mom's question to what she wants to drink. I asked for thee. I don't drink coffee because of my little girl.

We are sitting in the living room. We only sit here when we have guests. I forgot to tell Lana my parents are rich. So we live in a big house. We have 3 showers, 4 toilets, a hot tub and a sauna. Not to mention our huge back-yard where our dogs can run around as much as they want. Everything looks picture-perfect which caused a lot of struggles when I still lived here. I am a little chaotic and I can cause a hurricane in the house. My parents can't take that.

And about the money-part. We get everything we want. iPhones, laptops, clothes and everything. The only thing we don't get is love. My parents care more about money and material stuff than about emotional connection and family. Or at least that is the message that colored my childhood and adolescence.

It's not like I don't love my parents, because I do. It's just hard... I did miss them though. And I can't wait for them to get to know Lana as my girlfriend.

Lana and I are sitting on the couch and my parents are sitting in the chairs across the room. I am explaining what happened in Paris. They are mad at me because I lied about not-going there. At the end of the conversation, the apologized for not listening to me when I wanted to explain. They thank Lana for standing up for me and for caring for me. I cry because I finally feel like they accept me. Mom and dad also invite me to move back in during the weekends.

My little doggie missed me like hell. He jumps on the couch and sniffs me. He puts his front paws on my arm and licks my nose. I hug the hell out of my little boy and introduce him to Lana. She caresses his pretty head and talks to him. Simba sniffs my belly and licks my hands. He lies down on my lap and puts his head on my belly. It feels awesome to be so close to him again. I missed him so damn much!

Lana and I decide to leave shortly after the good conversation with my parents. We have our own little home to care for. That is just ours. We love each other and we can use our privacy. Tomorrow we will be back to have dinner with my parents. I feel like everything is picture-perfect again.