Stuck in the Middle

Lana leaves the room to get my parents. They are in the waiting room. I look into the prettiest brown eyes I have ever seen. They seem so honest, so full of trust. The love I feel is so absolute. It colors every part of my heart and soul.

Lana comes back into the room, followed by my parents and even my sister. I show them the little girl in my arms. "Everyone... meet the newest member of our family: Diana"

Sounds of amazement come from the people in the room. Lana already knew her name, but we kept it a secret for everyone.

I am so fully happy at this moment. I have my girlfriend by my side and my daughter in my arms. I'm also surrounded by my parents and my sister. My family feels complete. I am so in love with my life.

I can't wait to have a life with these people in it. I just feel... whole.

The next day, the rest of my family comes by to see the new little member of the family. Everyone seemed to already love the little baby. It still feels hard to hand her over and just not have her with me all the time. But she is exhausting me and Lana too. Lana is a great mother, don't get me wrong, but at this point I am so exhausted that she can't seem to do anything right. I cry all the time, because of happiness and exhaustion. And Lana can't stand to hear nor see me cry because of how tired she is. She had a long flight and she has a jetlag. Combine that with a newborn and it causes a lot of frustration between us.

But when I see the way she looks at my daughter, at OUR daughter, I know that I love her. And we will make it through.