Again

"Happy Anniversary, baybeh." my high ass husband said before kissing the crook of my neck.

"Happy Anniversary, my love." I said back as I turned around in his embrace to face him.

It is officially our 5 year anniversary. Yes, we've been through hell and back, but I'm grateful we found our way back to each other. He's my home, my comfort, and my best friend.

I joke all the time, but I really couldn't picture life without him again. I love him too much now.

"Are you high right now?" I inquired looking into his red eyes. He was also up late last night, and was up early this morning, so he could be tired. But I just wanna make sure.

"Just a lil bit." he chuckled as I shook my head with a smile.

"Is this gonna be a tradition of yours?"

"What you talkin bout?"

"Smoke one or two before we celebrate our union?"

"I mean it is weed day, I gotta celebrate this day too." he grinned.

"Why is weed day even our anniversary?"

"Because even though, I was high shit, and barely remembered anything. I did remember that I asked you to be mine when you were like 15. I knew this was a day I could never forget. And since you ain't wanna have a Frozen wedding like Mani suggested." he paused to laugh. "I needed a day we could agree on. 4/20/2009 was the happiest day of my life. 13 years later, I wanted to make it the happiest day of your life as well."

I was overjoyed that he had actually put so much thought into the date he chose. We couldn't agree on a day for shit, so I just gave up & told him to choose. I was so mad that he chose 4/20 of all the days in the year, but I'm happy that he did. I was literally one of the happiest days of my life.

"Aww. You're so sweet and I love you so much."

I kissed him, and he deepened it. I felt his hand creep up my shirt, as mine wandered to the inside of his pants. He groaned before pulling away, and placing his hands on my waist. I was both mad and confused.

"Why'd you stop?" I questioned trying to mask the anger that was building.

"I got a long day planned fa us, so take ya sexy ass ta the bathroom and get ready." he pecked my lips before removing his hand from my waist.

Guess I can't be too mad at that. I nodded, before turning and walking towards the bathroom. I jumped a little, and grabbed my ass after he slapped it.

Wonder what he has planned for us today...? I shrugged the thought and continued my journey across the room and into the bathroom. Well that was before he spoke up.

"You gettin thick, you pregnant again?"

I glared at him. "Must be a scientific miracle, you & I both know that I got my tubes tied after Antonio." I closed the bathroom door & began to strip.

I turned on Pandora, and stepped inside the steaming shower. Love by Keyshia Cole came through the speakers as I started to reflect on my life over the past 10 years.

I got back with my first love, and for the most part, everything has been amazing between us. Of course we had our bad moments, but every relationship has issues. I gained another beautiful child, and even though he's a daddy's boy, I love him to the end of the earth. Mani too. My kids are my world, and there's nothing I wouldn't do to ensure their happiness and safety.

But me & Adonis? I'm not even sure how this happened again, but I'm glad it did. When I got pregnant with Ant, Adonis and I were in a weird place in our relationship. He had quit the dope game, but still lived in New Orleans. He wanted me to move down there at least until Ant was 6 months old. I understood why he wanted that, but my life was here in Cali. He had just opened his rec center, and didn't wanna leave just yet. We were engaged before we started talking about our living arrangements. Ultimately, he made the decision to move here, as long as I was cool with him opening a weed dispensary.

Honestly, I didn't care what he did, as long as it was legal. I just wanted my family together once and for all. I'm extremely proud of his growth though. He's come a long way from being the Ghost that stuck fear in niggas heart. I'm pretty sure he still does have that same power, but it's a thing of the past right now.

As for me, I'm sure my skeletons are slowly falling out of the closet. Dreamz was probably the first of many that I'm sure will come. I just gotta be ready and make my husband aware. Today just isn't that day though. Today I focus on the happiness and love we've built over the past decade.

I finished my shower and walked into the bedroom with nothing but a towel wrapped around me.

I was walking towards the closet when something lying on the bed caught my eye.

Awww he's so sweet. He had an outfit for me laid out on the bed. Along with a few gift bags and a handwritten card.

It's 4/20 and our anniversary. You know, that I like smoking, but my favorite drug will always be you. I question damn near daily "how did I get so lucky and so blessed?" I know we ain't supposed to question God's plan, but I still be wanting to know why he blessed me with such a beautiful spirit and family. I know I haven't always done you right, and that will forever be my biggest mistake. I've put you and my baby girl through some pretty tough times, and I truly apologize for that. You are stronger than you realize and I'm beyond thankful for you. My love grows deeper everyday for you. I can never thank you enough for giving me, us, and our family another chance. I love you, my Lil Rida. Forever and always, to infinity and beyond.

Ghost ❤ I mean.... Adonis (I can't draw a kiss emoji, so use ya imagination).

P.S. clean ya face, get dressed, and meet me downstairs. (insert smirk emoji)

Look! He even learned how to spell. Every time he writes or sends a text, it's spelled the same way he says it.

I couldn't help, but to laugh and wipe my tears. This man here, I don't know what I'm gonna do with him. But in the meantime, I'll get ready for our day.

I looked myself over once more, before walking out of our room and down the stairs.

...why is it so quiet?

"Adonis..?" I called out. I heard nothing in return. I really hope he's not playing games.

I can never be too safe, so I grabbed a gun from underneath the table that was near the stairs. You know, just in case some shit pops off. I took my shoes off and cautiously walked to the kitchen. Careful not to make too much noise.

There's always a noise in my house, even if it's just the tv. So for it to be this quiet in here, something ain't right.

I finally made my way to the kitchen and couldn't believe my eyes...

"Oh my God!" I screamed before covering my mouth. Tears started to pool on my lower eyelid.

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Damn! It's been forever. I missed you guys 😔

I honestly had writers block for the longest, and then my work schedule kept switching up, so I didn't know when to write.

I still don't. I just started typing and the ideas started flowing

"Tee, how you leave us for a year and then end this chapter with a cliffhanger?"

🙃🙃 I know, I know, but I'm working on the next chapter. Just gotta figure some things out.

Y'all know I don't like predictability, so your comments write the next chapter. 😄😄

Love always, your favorite headache ❤☮️T