I loved and I lost you: SPN Fanfic (Gabriel x oc)

Halo didn't wake up this morning.

She used her three little wings and flew away.

Gabriel had left at some point during the day.

I refused to let anyone take her body.

If from what I was told was the truth half the neighborhood had been destroyed.

The people in it killed.

Human people. Dead.

Because of me.

Because I let my powers loose.

I lost control.

I sat in the dark for what felt like years to me.

No more tears could be shed.

I was numb.

I didn't do anything when the door opened. I just sat staring at the wall.

"Cansas...You need to eat something." Balthazar's voice rang through my ears. He walked over and stood beside me.

"Cansas." He said but I did nothing. He placed the sandwich on the ground next to me.

"At least a bite. Not even a huge one." Still nothing.

"The Winchesters have called you. More times then I would like to count." Silence. Balthazar sighed.

"Well, I'll be downstairs if you need me. Please, try to eat something. You're still human." He walked towards the door.

"I want to burn her body..." My hoarse voice said. Balthazar stopped and looked back at me.

"Are you sure? I can get-"

"I want to do it," I said wiping the dried tears from my cheeks.

"I'm the one w-who...I made her that way. I-I'll do it." Balthazar walked back over to me and knelt down.

"You couldn't have stopped it Cansas. It wasn't your fault." I shook my head. I was the monster that gave her an overdose on power. It was my fault.

"Would you do me a favor..."

"Anything." I pointed behind me on the bed to where Halo was in an endless sleep.

"C-Can you wrap h-her b-body...I can't do it." Balthazar nodded.

"Of course." And then he got up and took Halo. When he left I curled myself up in a ball.

When the sun set and the moon rose was when Gabriel came back. I had finally gotten out of my bedroom and was sitting in the kitchen. A bowl a cereal sat in front of me but I didn't eat it. Gabriel came in smelling of alcohol. Blood covered him. Some was his while some was others.

"Where's Balthazar?" He asked as he pulled a beer out of the fridge. I watched this and then looked back to my uneaten bowl of cereal.

"Outback." I moved my spoon in a circular motion. Gabriel ripped the top off and took a long swig.

"Why?" He sat down at the table in front of me. I didn't look up at him.

"To sent up a fire." He took another swig of his drink.

"Why?" He said a little annoyed. I glanced up at him.

"So I can salt and burn her body." Gabriel was silent. His grip on the bottle of beer tightened.

"Was that his idea?" I placed my spoon down and looked at him.

"It was mine." The glass bottle broke and pieces of glass flew all over the place. I didn't bat an eye at this.