I loved and I lost you: SPN Fanfic (Gabriel x oc)

I woke up with a start. Another bad dream. I could hear the tv on downstairs where Gabriel sat never moving. We hadn't talked much since we burned Halo's body. Hopefully, that would change over time...but we don't have time. The apocalypse from what Balthazar had told me was moving fast. It was a waiting game now. I rolled out of bed and walked out of my room.

When I made it to the living room I found Gabriel sitting there. He had stopped drinking the day before. But he still was rude and hurtful. I walked over and sat down near the armrest and watched the television. The news was on and it was talking about the crazy weather and deaths.

"Where's Balthazar?" Gabriel asked looking over at me. I picked at the edge of the couch.

"H-He's out...trying to find a new house...he said, hunters and demons and things are going to be wounding...attracted to the death and destruction I caused..." Gabriel looked back over at the tv and was quiet.

"He didn't say that."

"That's what he meant." We went quiet again. The news switched over to a commercial about cleaning supplies or something like that.

"Why are you up so late?" I didn't answer.

"Cansas." He said looking over at me. This was the first time he had said my name since...so I looked up a bit. Not at him though.

"Tell me why you are up? Did you have a bad dream or something." I nodded slowly. Gabriel sighed and ran a hand over his face.

"Tell me about it?" He asked turning towards me. I looked over at him as he waited.

"Um...w-well it was about..." I looked down at the couch and messed with my shaking hands. A hand was placed on them and I looked back to Gabriel a little shocked.

"Y-you were killed," Gabriel went to talk but I cut him off.

"I killed you." Tears came to my eyes a bit thinking about it. Gabriel sighed again squeezed my hands a bit.

"You can't get rid of me that easy. I'm not going anywhere. I promise." I smiled a bit and looked back at the couch. The room fell silent again.

"Cansas-" "Gabriel-" We both said at the same time.

"You can go first," I said moving my hair out of my face. He nodded and continued with what he was going to say.

"I'm so sorry...I've been a dick for the past couple of days...I shouldn't have been rude to you and Balthazar. You two did nothing wrong." I shook my head.

"No, you shouldn't be sorry. I'm the one that should be sorry. You have every right to hate me. I'm a monster." Gabriel pulled me into a hug.

"You are not a monster. No one could have saved...You can't blame yourself." I buried my face in his neck and hugged him tight for the first time in days.

When the doorbell rang was when we pulled apart. Both of us looked at the door in confusion. Who would be at our door at 3 o'clock in the morning?

"I'll get it," Gabriel said standing up. I watched as he walked over to the door and opened it.

"Hello, Master Loki. I'm sorry for disturbing you but you have been invited to a meeting of the gods by Kali." The man standing there handed Gabriel a red card with fancy writing on it. Gabriel looked over the cover and by the time he looked back up the man was gone in the blink of an eye.

"Kali? As in the goddess?" Gabriel nodded and shut the door. He sat back down next to me and opened the card. I waited for him to read over it. His eyes widened a bit and he groaned.