Something Different //J.A.

Thursday, Dec. 28th, 2017.

I woke up in my own bed at my own apartment. I get up and walk into my bathroom to get in the shower. As I take off my pants, I see blood. And not just a little, A LOT. I go ahead and get in the shower to clean myself off and when I get out I throw away the ruined underwear and pants. I then go over to my bed and realize there's a big blood stain there. I sigh and change into my clothes and walk to the bathroom to put a pad in. That's when I remembered, I'm pregnant. I can't have periods if I'm pregnant. That means..... oh god. My eyes start to water as I run into my bedroom and unplug my phone from its charger. I clicked on Jack's contacts and it started ringing. It rang and rang but he didn't answer. I sighed as I started crying harder. I tossed my phone on the floor and crumbled down to my knees, crying hysterically at this point. I heard my phone ringing, my Shawn Mendes ring tone going off. I look at it threw blurred eyes and blinked so the tears dropped and I could read the screen. It read 'Baby😍' Across the top with a photo of Jack's face popping up. I didn't have the heart to answer it and tell him over FaceTime so I hit my phone until it went sliding under my bed. I sobbed more just laying there on my floor. I don't even think I can even stand up.

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"Good Morning Renegades." I sighed as I sat on the end of my bed. My camera was set up on my desk. "I'm really sorry but this vlog might be a kind of slow one today." I said as I sniffled. "But just hang in there with me, I just wanna take a minute to talk to you guys cause I don't really get the opportunity to do that often." I said. "So, this morning was a really sad morning for me. And I'm not gonna explain why and I don't think I'll ever say completely why because somethings in life most vloggers or YouTubers like to keep personal, and this is a kinda personal thing that I don't wanna share, But just know today was a sort of sad one. And since that happened, I don't really feel emotionally stable to go anywhere or do anything. Like have you guys ever felt so..... I don't know, like depressed, that you just didn't have enough energy to walk, or get out of bed, or even speak to another person?" I asked my camera as I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear.

"Cause that was how I felt about an hour ago. I didn't want to do anything. This emotional wound is still pretty fresh so I didn't even want to make this video. But I am, because I know somewhere out there, there is a person, in so much need of a smile or laugh. There is a person who watches my videos to escape from the crappy reality they live in. I know there is a person, no matter how much I hurt, there is someone out there in so much more pain than me. So, with that being said, I'm gonna try to pull myself together and make a somewhat funny vlog for you guys." I smiled weakly. "Because I know someone out there needs it, and I need it to. So, let's go see what trouble I can get into today." I smiled widely as I grabbed my camera off my desk, clicking it off and grabbing my car keys, heading over to Logan's house.

My oldest brother is always up to trouble so I decided to go out and see what he was up to. I knew he could put a smile on my face. So I drove over there and got out of my car, going to see if he was there. Then I remembered my idiot brother was on his way to Tokyo today. Tragedy's have the best timing don't they? I sighed, getting back in my Tesla and calling the one person that always knew how to party, Aurora. "Hey Girl!" Aurora squealed excitingly as she answered the phone. "Hey Aurora! How's college life treating you?" I asked as I smiled. "Ugh, it's so boring. And my new roommate is outta control. She's always having her boyfriend over or blasting loud music. Sometimes both at the same time. She thinks blasting 'The Killers' will time our her loud screams but that doesn't help. But I don't mind listening to "Somebody Told Me" a little to loud. I wish my best friend was here to enjoy it with me." She said and I frowned. "Well I'm sorry." I said and she chuckled. "Hey, I could really use a reason to ditch 4th block, wanna go shopping or something?" She asked and I let out a relieved sigh. "God yes, that's perfect!" I smiled. "I need a little break from reality." "And I need a break from World Geo. See ya at 2:30?" Aurora jokes and I smiled. "Of course. See ya later babes." I smiled before hanging up and turning my phone off for the day.