A Moment That Changed It All (Jake Paul)

I'm sorry y'all this ain't an update. I did want to, however, bestow some words of wisdom on you guys cause I know a lot of you are younger than me. I am 20 years old for anyone who doesn't know and I've grown a lot in the past few years. And I know how hard high school is and how everything seems like a big deal. But the truth is it's not. For anyone who struggles with anxiety, what got me through it was remembering is that once I graduate I can forget about all this and don't have to talk to anyone ever again. And now I have maybe one friend from high school. Also, I was really self-conscious and was afraid to freaking sneeze cause I thought it was embarrassing but just like your thinking about everyone judging you they worry about the same thing. So I would just tell myself that I'm too busy thinking about what everyone else thinks of me so are they. They are just as worried about what you think of them and they are too busy thinking of themselves to see you trip or whatever. But regardless it all does come to an end and you decide whether you want to keep those people in your life or not. And I know it all seems like the end of the world but trust me that once its over, its over. And I look back at myself and see that nothing mattered except my grades. Like I know you still have to get through it but it helped to just focus on school and just remembering that it will end. And as you get older you will stop caring so much about what others think and find the confidence I know I did. I'm not a skinny girl nor do I look like what I think "beautiful" is but I'm mostly happy with who I am. I'm not fat but I could lose some weight (cause I'm not healthy that why) but I still wear tight clothes or shirts that when I lift my arms you can see my stomach cause I don't care as long as I think I look cute. I even wear heels even though it makes me the tallest person in the room. I also sometimes go a little overboard with my makeup but that's because I love the look and don't give a crap what anyone thinks. Why does it matter what people think, especially when most don't have the guts to actually say anything. And if they do who cares that is one person and it's probably happening in high school which means once you're done you won't see them again. Plus the people who are mean in high school usually have their own issues. Someone once told me my make up was scary looking cause I wore a lot but it didn't stop me cause I love makeup and I was ahead of my time. It was before 9 years old knew how to do a smokey eye perfectly. Don't get into high school drama cause after those four years it will no longer be relevant. 

This was just kinda a stream of consciousness I think is what is called/ advise for you guys as you step into the new year/ things I wish someone told me. I'll be updated soon I promise.

Bye:3