It (2017) | Imagines + Preferences

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aged up (roughly 17 years old)

TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF RAPE, SUICIDE, DRUGS, AND ALCOHOL.

your pov

no thank you

i was absolutely,

is what i should've said

positively,

i should be in bed.

fucked.

but, temptations.

i'd snuck out to go to a party.

of troubles on my tongue.

bad idea, on my part. but i'd gotten tipsy- not even drunk, just confused.

troubles yet to come.

dragged up into some guy's bed. i'd guess it was the host of the party.

one sip.

i didn't want to.

bad for me.

where was richie?

one hit.

he was there- i saw him.

bad for me.

i tried to scream. to fight back- it didn't work. he pinned my wrist down with his own.

one kiss.

it bruised.

bad for me.

so, instead of fighting. instead of yelling.

but i give in so easily.

i let him. i wish i didn't. i was crying, he saw that i was but he persisted.

and, no thank you.

i tried to fight, to reject him, i really did. and when i finally left, he was done so i ran, and i cried.

is how it should've gone.

in hindsight i would've rather gotten beat up.

i should stay strong.

eddie's house. my best friend. i told him i was at beverly's house, and that's why i couldn't make our movie marathon.

but i'm weak.

i didn't bother with the window. i sidn't care- i pounded on the door, my oversized leather jacked draped around my shoulders slipped onto the ground and i didn't care, i needed help.

and what's wrong with that?

eddie swung the door open, ready to yell at whoever it was, until he saw my face. maybe it was just because i was crying. or maybe because i'm his best friend.

boy, oh boy i love it when i fall for that.

i nearly tackled him in a hug. he was taller than me, he'd grown since we were kids. i sometimes wished we still were kids.

i'm weak.

"what happened?"

"i went to the party eddie, i wasn't at beverly's and i- there was- someone brought beer so i had some and there was a guy- he dragged me to his room and he-"

"oh, y/n, hey, it isn't your fault love. okay? you didn't do anything wrong. you know who it was? i'll deal with it tomorrow, alright? c'mon, it's freezing."