It (2017) | Imagines + Preferences

E.K|Weak

and what's wrong with that?

he took me to his room, he grabbed my wrist and i winced but he let go when he realised he hurt me and he started to panic and bandage my bruised wrist. it really wasn't that bad. but he cared.

boy, oh boy i love it when i fall for that.

and exactly what i needed right then was someone who cared. so i let him bandage my wrists.

i'm weak.

we watched movies. we're lucky his mom worked late on saturdays. that wasn't our movie night for just no reason.

but i'm weak, and what's wrong with that?

i was cuddled to his chest and i felt safer than ever that night.

boy, oh boy i love it when i fall for that.

i think maybe to feel really safe, you've got to feel really vulnerable first.

no thank you.

richie called me at 4am the day after. i was home now. i snuck out to the woods with him.

they call me after dark.

i trusted richie. i still do. he'd never hurt me and i know it.

i don't want no part.

but he'd done this before.

my habits.

i'd done this before.

they hold me like a grudge.

"hey y/n."

"hey rich."

"did you bring a lighter?"

"yeah."

i promise i won't budge.

i got high that night.

one sip.

my mother caught me.

bad for me.

she noticed i was gone. i was out until 6am. when she gets up for work.

one hit.

she thought i slept with richie.

bad for me.

i didn't. she didn't believe me.

one kiss.

i was grounded for a month. being grounded in the summer is much more agonizing than in the winter, when there's school. i had no contact with anyone for a month besides saying hi to beverly once when i passed her in the grocery store with my mum.

bad for me.

when i was un-grounded i went to the store to pick up some headphones. i broke mine and my mom wouldn't take me to get more.

but i give in so easily.

i met a boy.

and no thank you.

he took me on a date.

is how it should've gone.

he kissed me. my first kiss.

i should stay strong.

i pushed him away when he tried to go into my house with me, i don't know why i let him know i was home alone. he blocked the door. i ran back to eddie.