One Thing I Won't Do

/' I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but
I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you' /
-Hate You Love You / Olivia O'Brien

Althea

My body starts to release the alcohol i had earlier, nanginginit ang buong katawan ko and im having all this liquid dreams of Jade kissing my lips while dominantly on top. The feeling was so realistic that i could vividly feel her lips against mine.

"...al..theaaaa...."

Holy shit, that is not Jade's voice. Kahit lasing ako, memoryado ko ang bawat detalye ng boses ni Jade.
Agad akong dumilat and got the shock of my life. Samantha's on top of me, topless while grinding her center to my torso. I got more terrified when i discovered my already exposed penis.

"What are you doing Samantha!?!"

I almost howl each word.

"Pagbigyan mo na ako Althea...i swear mas magaling ako kay Jade..."

Tinulak ko siya ng malakas at kumawala sa pagkakapatong niya, bulagta siya sa sahig sa lakas ng pwersa. I distance myself and fix my pants.

"Have you gone nuts? Alam mong bestfriend ko si Shewi and im with Jade."

"Ikaw ang nuts Althea, i dont get it. You fuck every hot girl you lay your eyes on, pati pinsan ko pinatos mo. But you pass on me? Nakakainsulto ha, I presented myself to you multiple times, pero ang ending, si Shewi ang nanligaw sa akin. Shit diba."

She rant while fixing the buttons of her blouse. This is a disaster, so alam pala niya ang tungkol sa amin ni Arci and all this time she keep silent. I pace back and forth trying to absorb what she just said.

"So, ginamit mo lang si Shewi? How could you be so heartless Samantha? You're aiming for me at the expense of my bestfriend!"

"I have no other means Althea, tatanga-tanga yang kaibigan mo eh. Come on, lets enjoy the night. Kanina pa ako natatakam sa titi mo."

Sam run towards me and instantly rubs her body against my waist, she totally lost it. Tinulak ko siya with all the disgust i have for her, napasabunot ako sa sarili, i need to leave, i cant stay here.

"Get the fuck away from me Samantha...nandidiri ako sayo...."

Para siyang maduming basura sa paningin ko, like a piece of shit na walang halaga.

"You are way more than a whore Samantha, you're a self centered devil. Wag mong asahan na papatulan kita dahil besides the fact na mahal ko si Jade, hindi ka worth it ipagpalit sa pagkakaibigan namin ni Shewi."

I storm out of the house after pounding the wooden door close. Kailangan malaman to ni Shewi, she cant stay in a relationship founded in a web of lie's.

*

Althea

"Ha!?! What do you mean na wala na kayo ni Sam?"

My heart skip a beat with what she just said. I invited Shewi to a coffee shop near the campus, lunch break naman kasi at may kailangan akong aminin sa kanya, hindi ako pinapatahimik ng puso ko, sa tagal ng pagkakaibigan namin, hindi ko kayang magtago sa kanya, para na rin akong nagsinungaling sa sarili ko. We're more than just best of friends, we are sisters.
Hindi pa man nagsasalita, i can sense from her aura na hindi naging maganda ang takbo ng paghihiwalay nila. She had been crushing with Samantha since grade school and i know for sure na mahal na mahal niya ito. I can still remember the day na bigla akong sinugod ni Shewi sa bahay at 5 in the morning just to tell me na sila na. She was so happy, she has been faithful eversince.