everyday || jin longguo

"don't hide the falling tears. come into my arms, it's alright. flowers bloom and wither. they bloom again and the seasons change, but our love will last forever"

everyday i wonder to myself

"is she doing fine?"
"is she crying too?"
"am i the only one in pain now?"
"is she doing the same thing i am?"
"where is she?"
"is she eating well?"
"is there now someone else?"
"am i still in her heart?"
"does she sleep well?"

but no matter how much i wonder, i can never pick up the cellphone and ask if how you are doing and if you're well. i can't ask you if you've been eating or sleeping well. i can't ask you if you're in pain. i'm a coward. i know.

but don't hide the tears you cry because maybe at the same time i am crying my heart out too, wondering where we went wrong. maybe at the same time i am hesitating to call you.

people say "there's always a rainbow after the storm" but why is our storm going on for so long? why can't we just hurry up and get the rainbow so we can be together again?

seasons change, flowers come and go. you were my flower. but unlike the seasons, you didn't come and go. unlike the seasons our love stayed forever. but it did change. we don't have one another anymore.