Why Cry? (TMR x Reader) ((ON HOLD))

**Part One**
~1 year later~
(Y/N) POV:
I felt a scream rip through my throat as I thrashed my body out of my hammock, causing me to slam myself against the floor. I laid there for a second, gasping for air, before I got up and brushed myself off. I heard the thumping of multiple footsteps before my door was slammed open. A panting Newt, Thomas, and Minho stood in the doorway, all three of them searching around my room before spotting my figure standing by my bed. "H-Hi?" I gave a weak wave as all three of them let out a sigh of relief before they each walked in. "Love," Newt started," Was..was it the night terrors again?" I nodded before smiling weakly. "B-But I'm fine! See? I managed to not fu-shucking bang my head on the dresser again!" I heard Minho snicker followed by a light groan. 'Thomas elbowed him I bet..' I glanced at the two and let out an airy laugh. Minho was rubbing his side while Thomas glared at him with his arms crossed. "S-Sorry.." Minho grumbled as he shared a glaring contest with Thomas. I giggled, saying a quick 'It's okay' before I started to push them out the door. "Wait! Don't you wanna talk about it?" Thomas's concerned eyes held mine as he put his hands on my shoulders, holding me in a firm, but gentle grip. I shook my head no, and smiled at him. He returned it, mumbling an 'okay' before ruffling my hair. Newt and Minho did the same before all three of them called out their 'goodnights' and headed to bed. I watched their figures walk off, their silhouettes black against the light of moon. I closed my door gently, before letting out a quick sigh. I stumbled back to my bed, before opening the drawer and taking out a bottle of pills. 'What's the point..these don't seem to be doing anything to "help" me..' I sighed as I opened the bottle, poured two into my hand, then dry swallowed them. I felt my eyes getting heavy, which caused me to lay my body down and wait for sleep to overcome me. As I did, I thought back to when this first started.

**Flash Back// 1 year ago: 2 months after coming up in the Maze**

(Y/N) POV:
I 'whooped' as I heard the alarm box ring out in the Glade, signaling a new arrival and supplies. I hopped down from one of the newer buildings, and ran withing the crowd of boys to go see who the new Greenie was. As I slowed down, I saw the boys beginning to crowd around the box, waiting for it to open. I smiled as I pushed my way through, standing in between Alby and Gally, who had Minho and Newt on their sides. I tipped my head towards them before I looked back down.
"Hey Newt," I called, seeing his head snap up to me, "How does it feel to not be the Greenie anymore?" I heard him groan out before glaring at me. "Ha Ha, ya know..you're just bloody hilarious (Y/N). I don't understand where you come up with this shucking stuff!" I bit my lip to hold back my laughter, but glancing at Minho didn't help at all. We all started to laugh our asses off, Newt slightly chuckling in the process. We immediately stopped, hearing the wall of the alarm signaling the arrival of the box. Gally and Alby pulled open the gates as we saw a brown haired boy look up at us, his eyes widening at us. "Do we look that bad?" I whispered to Minho and Newt, both of them chucking slightly. "I'm sure he's just in shock of how handsome I am." You rolled your eyes at Minho, elbowing him in the stomach. You went to help Alby as you saw Gally drop down into the crate to help the poor boy out. "Hey you shanks! Get your shucking butts over here and help us out!" I yelled over my shoulder as I started to lift the crates up. Boys gathered around and started to sort them out, while two or three other boys came and helped us too. Alby was almost finished when I saw him stop, a weird tension surrounded him as he looked at a certain box. "Alby..you good?" I called, nerves prickling my stomach. "(Y/N)..umm.." His voice was wavering, a slight uneasiness covered his eyes as he glanced up between me and the box. "This is for you.." He lifted up a crate, and finally I could see why he was so tense. The crate was different, you could sense it without even looking at it. Instead of the usual wood case, it was metal, and huge. The crate seemed to weigh a ton, but it was lighter than a feather. I easily lifted it up, holding it up to the sun to see what it said. The usual W.I.C.K.E.D. logo was there, but in the side there was a piece of folded paper with
'(Y/N)' scribbled on the side. "I..I'm gonna go check this out." You saw Alby nod as he called Minho and Newt to help him with the rest. The boys gave you a nervous glance as the stalked towards Alby, who also kept glancing at you. You quickly walked towards your hut and closed the door, making sure to lock it before sitting in your bed. You put the crate down in front of you and began to open it. You stopped though, remembering the note. Quickly, you grabbed it and opened it, slightly eager to see what was inside. As you began to read it, a slight feeling of being watched came over you.
'(Y/N),
As you come to open this crate, you will find some viles. Now this is important, you need to inject these into your blood system every night before you go to sleep."
You gave a confused look as you opened the container, and froze instantly as gazed inside the box. The viles, as the letter said, we're way bigger than you thought. Each contained a substance, every single one a different color. You took notice on how each we're labeled a different number, and how the colors all seemed to be on the dark side. You glanced back at the note and felt your heart stop as you read the next few lines.
'(Y/N),if you tell anyone, everything changes. Remember, W.I.C.K.E.D is good.'
**End of flashback**
So, here you were, secret still hidden. A note of side effects, one waay too long to read, was given to you. Most of them didn't appear, only night terrors and panic attacks seemed to bit you the hardest. Alby asked you what was in the box, but you just brushed him off slightly. You liked and told him that it was just "feminine stuff" and even wrote your own note to help your story. Everyone believed you and left you alone about it. Besides that outcome, you met and befriended the Greenie, whose name you found out was Thomas. Gally told you about his dislike towards him, but you talked to him and told him to give Thomas a chance. He only sighed and nodded his head, before complaining about his job again. You then spoke to Newt and Minho, who agreed to befriending him. After that, it all went back to normal...sort of..
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-M.H💙💙