Lost Memories

At first you don't expect this note to be read
Is this really real? Or fake, inside my head?
Should I kill myself so I can be with you soon?
(You don't even understand)
This whole situation seems so blue

People never deserved me but they deserved you
They should have met you but you were gone before anyone knew
(It was for the best)
It should have been me, it should've been
I never would've thought that I would be alone in this endless drowning routine

I guess people have to learn someday
(It's my fault, I made you like this)
But can you please take my pain away?
I've been trying so hard to not disappoint
(I should've said you never disappointed me for once in my life)
I should've saw...I could've saw pass the vanishing point

Without your love it's like poison
(Or maybe I'm the poison)
It's killing me to not have it; your undying support, love and enjoyment
People might interpret what I say wrong
But who's going to read this?
Be real, no one..
(I'm reading it..)
So if you'll excuse me I'll place this where you will only be before this note gets too long
(I'm right here!)
Why did you leave me here when we were so damn strong?
(I'm sorry I left you there to die)