If This Works

I spent almost every night this week at Aki's house. No wonder I almost fell asleep in third period. At least it was a nice day outside. I think I'll go and get a popsicle with Aki and we could sit on the roof of the school. I met Aki in the cafeteria and I pushed him to go to the roof of the school.

"Why did you bring me up here Mouse?" He asked.

"It's my favorite spot in the school. I like to come up here on nice days and think, or just watch the world go by." I said unwrapping my popsicle.

"That's really poetic Mouse." He said mocking me.

"You asked the question." I said.

He rolled his eyes at me. I started to eat my popsicle. It's the best flavor too, orange. The only problem I have with these things is they melt too fast. It was already dripping down my arm. I did what any sane person would: I licked it up. I didn't even notice Aki looking at me with intent eyes.

"Why are you teasing me like that?" He asked staring at what I was doing.

"Tease you like what?" I was genuinely confused. All I'm doing is enjoying a frozen treat.

Aki came closer to me like he was going to kiss me, but instead he stuck his tongue out and licked my popsicle eroticly.

"Like that." He said.

"I wasn't doing that!" I said defensively. "I'd never do that! I just like popsicles!" I could feel that I was blushing.

"Mouse I really want you." He said. "But I can't have you, can I?" He kissed me then the bell rang.

He left me, but I was too much in shock to move. What did he mean? I swear being with him is like doing the New York Times crossword puzzle. He's never straight forward about anything! To make matters worse my popsicle melted and dropped.

I just collected myself and went to class. I don't have the time to decipher him at the moment. I headed to class with what he said ringing in the back of my head. I know he wants to sleep with me, I know that.

Dose he think that I don't want to sleep with him too? I mean, I love him and I'll do anything to make him happy. I want to sleep with him too, I'm just nervous and I know I'll be no good.

After school I went home for a change. Any other day I would go with Aki to his house. I need to figure out a way to show that I want him. I've never done something like this before. I have to think long and hard about this. At least it's a long walk home.