only exception ? dinger holfield ?

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Jade's pov

Turns out Dinger is in all of my classes , and he somehow got to the desk beside me every time.
This is going to be a LONG year.

It's now the end of the day and I get to my locker , grab my back pack and slam the door shut . I'm so ready to get out of this stupid ass school . I have made a couple friends today . Lainie, Maureen, and Shelley. They were quite nice . Except Shelley was pretty bitchy but what can you do , not everyone can be an awesome person. I also made friends with Bobby the guy with Dinger this morning.
He was cool and I found out he was dating Lainie , they were really cute together in my opinion but I try not to look to far into relationships because then I'll start thinking about me in one , and that just leads to me wanting one.

Dinger tried talking to me the whole day and I had a super hard time not giving in . There is something about him that no other boys that tried to get at me had . Something about his bright blue eyes pulled me in . Oh and that fiery hair was so hypnotizing. But no , remember your plan Jade.

When I reach my door step I go to open the door but someone else came out as I tried to do so . There was this tall blonde lady with her lipstick smudged and her hair a mess. Seems that my dad couldn't handle his loneliness for long. It didn't really bother me much anymore that my dad was always had new girls over . He literally had this fear of being lonely. So he would bring new women over all the time when my mom wasn't home ( after they divorced ). My mom knew it was happening and even though she didn't want him anymore and treated him like shit , she would still get pissed . My dad would leave right before my mom would get home so when she arrived I would be the one her anger got taken out on. She would abuse me physically and emotionally.

So I guess that's another reason I have this plan of staying lonely so then I don't have to be worried about being hurt by them.

When i walk through the door I see that my dad is drinking vodka out of the bottle. He has been drinking heavily lately and though he hasn't done anything yet , he has been yelling at me more often the he ever has . I've kept myself together because maybe if he thinks it's not affecting me he'll stop .

But I was wrong

Look who it is , I was hoping maybe you wouldn't fucking come home today . Didn't you make any friends you fucking loner . My dad says as he comes over and pushes me back

" I did make friends actually, but they were all busy " I slightly lied because I had no idea if they were busy I just didn't make plans because I just met them.

Don't talk back you dumb bitch . He replies while slapping me across the face

" Dad , please stop you're drunk " I say trying not to cry while I feel the stinging in my cheek.

No matter if I'm drunk or not, you are such a disappointment , now get out of my fucking house . He punches me this time and I run out of the house .

I keep running till I'm too tired to keep going so I sit down on the curb and let out the feeling I have been holding in for nine years. Last time I cried was four years ago . I was twelve and I broke my arm. I never cry because of sadness because I like to act 'tough' and I don't want my parents to see . It makes them feel better when I cry so they know someone else is going through pain. So I don't cry . But they aren't near me . I can let go my pain , my emptiness even if it's just for a few minutes.

Dinger's pov

I was walking with Bobby and Lainie when I heard light sniffles. My curiosity took over me and I walk towards the sound . Turns out it was coming from right in front of my house . I spot this girl that looks a bit familiar, even though I can't see her face . The black shirt , blue jeans and converse were an outfit I have seen today . And that hair . That beautiful lightly curled hair. Something clicks . It's Jade.

a/n I feel like no one likes this book but I'm enjoying writing it so I'm going to keep doing exactly that