If I only could

Few hours earlier

"Jack, I've had enough!" She said as they got in their hotel room. Jack turned around and she can see fire in his eyes.. Oh anger for short. She strongly face him. She won't allow him to dictate her decisions anymore.

The moment she saw her family it broke her heart, her daughter grown up now, she missed everything. She missed her first walk, she missed her first words, she missed everything.

Before she even got to say anything more he grabbed her wrist and push her hard down on the bed. Her body bounce as he threw her. She kicked him on the leg using her strength. She won't allow this guy over and over again to abuse her.

Jack pinned her down and kiss her roughly to her lips, as always, she didn't respond until he went down to her neck. He ripped her clothes and she tried harder to push him, but then she felt his strong arm flies on her belly.

He pinned her again while she is dying in pain.

How many times he did this to her? Oh she can't count anymore. He always do this, he loves her to bed.

"Jack!" She said almost in a whisper while crying and thinking of Danny.

Every time he'll do this to her she has nothing in her mind but her husband. Hoping that he'll come to rescue her.

Next thing she felt is the earthquake in bed. She cried as she can't do anything at all.

"You know I won't leave you without doing this!" She heard him and she cried as he thrust inside her.

She's always thankful at some how that Jack never forget protection whenever he abused her or do this to her.

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Present

She cried harder in the shower room as she remember those times she had with Jack.

Those were nightmares and how she wish that Danny will gently wake her up in that nightmare and tell her that he's at her side, that he'll never leave her.

Since she met Jack everything was a nightmare.

She doesn't mean to end everything like this, she doesn't mean to separate with her husband. She doesn't mean to make them feel that she cheat cause she never cheat on them. She was forced into something that she can't escape.

From the moment she met Jack, he was broken and seems not himself. He was dumped by his ex fiancee and to her bad luck she was the one he met.

He raped her that time he put sleeping pills in her drink. She thought he was a good person and a good friend of one of her teams when they met at the party but she was wrong. She talked to a stranger., she was ready to tell her husband about what Jack did to her but she was too scared to face Danny and tell him what had happen.

When she told Jack that he'll report him to the police, He threatened her and even tell her to stay. Her life with him was just like a cycle. It's always the same, she'll woke up regretting everything. He controlled her life and she can't do anything about that because it wasn't just her life that he threatened. He included her family and she was sure enough that if she told him about Danny and her daughter, Jack won't leave them alone.

That's the reason why she didn't want Danny to be involved to save them and she sacrificed herself instead.

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She went out of the shower room after cleaning all the dirt that bastard leave though it will never clean. It will stay remain in her brain. That nasty jerk!!