DAYS I'VE SPENT WITHOUT YOU (Anders Fannemel)

17.

"Hey, sweetie. Please, Charlotte. I can't let you live like this, come on. Carlos is coming today, get up, please," I hear Maddie saying to me as I lay in my bed

I haven't moved since I came back. I miss Anders and Robert and mom and dad and everyone. Even though I said that I want everyone to leave me alone, I can't live like that. I just can't but I still get up.

I take a shower and brush my hair and teeth. I put on some shorts and a plain t-shirt. I go downstairs where I see Maddie making coffee.

"Why are you here, Mads? You have your own problems and life," I ask her and sit down at the table

"Because I'm your friend and friends don't let each other fall apart. Friends help each other and you more than clearly need a friend," she says and sits down beside me, she puts a ball of cereals in front of me and says eat.

"I really appreciate everything you're doing, Mads. Thank you," I say and look down at my ball of cereals

"But I really don't have the appetite," I add and push the cereal bowl away from me

I take my phone and check the messages. Robert, mom, dad and Carlos. I look at Carlos's message and see that he'll be in Spain as planned then I open the other messages and just text everyone that I'm in Spain and that I'm fine.

"You're going to say yes?" Mads asks me and I nod.

"I don't know what else to say. I love Carlos and he loves me, I think that's enough," I say and she takes my hand

"You can say no, Charlotte. I know that you love Carlos and that he loves you but you and Anders belong together, you are a perfect match and you know it," she says as I pull my hand away from her

"Please, don't say that you know how much I hate that word," I say and go upstairs back to my room when I hear the doorbell.

It confuses me because I have no idea who would come, Carlos is supposed to come in 2 hours. I go to open the door and as I see the person standing in front of them I wish I'd never open them.

"Hey, Charlotte," Alison says as she sees me.

"Alison. What are you doing here?" I ask her and try to figure out what she's doing here

"I want to talk to you and apologize. Can I come in?" she asks and I hesitate for a moment but in the end, let her in. We go to the kitchen table and sit down there.

"What is she doing here?" Mads asks as she pulls me aside away from Alison. I look at Alison and then back at Mads

"She wants to talk and apologize. I just feel like I need to listen to her and then I can kick her out," I tell Mads and go back to Ali. Mads sits down beside me

"I'm sorry for what I did to you in all those past years. I'm really really sorry, I shouldn't have compared myself with you and I'm sorry that I dated Anders. I know he still loves you, I knew that since the day we started dating and I know you still love him. That's why you should say no to the proposal. If you say yes, it'll kill Anders and he deserves better than that and so do you. You and Anders belong together, he waited for you for 2 years while you were in a coma. He has your name and the day you've met tattooed on his wrist. He loves you more than anything and you know it," she says and takes my hand, her hands are freezing

"He told me that he loves me more than his life. I know, that he does, I always knew. I just stopped believing in us, I don't think our relationship could work. It doesn't matter if we belong together, I don't believe in our love anymore. I just can't," I say and let go of her freezing hands

"When Anders broke up with me he told me how he really feels about you and about me. He told me that he'll always love you more than anyone in this world and that he'll always be there for you," Ali keeps convincing me to go back to Anders

"Why do you even care?" Mads suddenly asks her. Ali looks at her and slightly laughs

"I don't. I just feel like I own this to you, Char. After everything I've done to you, after everything I've said," she answers Maddie's question

"And also, I'm really sorry for what I've said to you about the time you were in a coma. I didn't mean it I just felt like I needed to. I'm really sorry about the accident, Charlotte. As much as I wanted to be as perfect as you were I realised that your life wasn't so perfect when I heard about the accident," she adds and gives me a reassuring smile

"It's fine, Ali. You had every reason to hate me, I'd be surprised if you wouldn't hate me. Even I hated myself for being so perfect," I say and smile her back

"So, have you changed your mind about the proposal?" Ali asks me and waits for the answer as the doorbell rings.

"I think we're about to find out," Mads quietly whispers as I go to open the door

As expected I find Carlos in front of them.

"Hey, Char," he says and pulls me into a hug as he sees me

"I missed you," I whisper and kiss him. We go in and I introduce him to Alison then he goes upstairs to change.

"Are you sure?" Mads asks me and takes my hand

"I've never been so sure in anything in my life," I say as Carlos comes down.

"Can we talk?" I ask and he nods

We go to the living room where we sit down on the couch to talk. I'm not doubting in my decision because it's what I want and need.