????? ?????

It was now the end of Seokjin's shift. He still remembered those words his boss said to him.

"I love you Seokjin"

The words played over in his mind. Surely it had to be a lie.. why would Min Yoongi, an extremely good-looking boss of a company be in love with Seokjin?

Seokjin walked along the train tracks again. It was evening, and the sun was going down. The sky was filled with pink, red and orange colours. Seokjin loved the evening.

Something cold hit the tip of Jin's nose. He looked up and saw snow. Lot's of snow. The snow started to stick to the ground.

Seokjin smiled. He loves the snow. He hears a train horn, and then the train goes past him really quickly. It's a long train, so he decides to count the carriages the train is pulling.

"9, 10.. 11." He said to himself. He assumed the train sounded its horn because Jin was so close to the track, but he didn't care. That's how he plans to die anyway, he's just waiting for the right time.

It may be suicide, but Seokjin doesn't care. He wants to die. Some people have a reason to live, Seokjin doesn't.

He was bullied throughout primary school, high school, university. He's teased at his work. He gets called out by others, and tormented. Even his roommate Taehyung doesn't treat him well sometimes.

Seokjin finally got home. He saw Taehyung in the living room. "Oh, hello hyung." Taehyung had a serious expression on his face.

"Hey, you alright?" Jin asks. "Well, no. I asked you to do my laundry, didn't I? Well guess what Jin, it hasn't been done. How hard is it hyung? How hard is it to do some laundry?!" Taehyung yelled.

"Well, I had to go to work, and I didn't have the time to do it, so sorry. But if laundry is so easy to do, why don't you ever do it?" Said Jin. Anger rose in Taehyung, which caused him to lash out at Jin.

SMACK

Jin held his cheek after Taehyung slapped him across the face. There was silence for a minute, before Taehyung ran to his room. Jin's cheek was red, and stinging. This isn't the first time Taehyung had hit him either.

Jin knew for a fact that Taehyung would later shower him with "sorry's" and "I didn't mean it."

It pissed him off. Jin does believe that he deserves the shit, but why lie to him? Taehyung doesn't even know about Jin's mental state, but he keeps adding to how depressed Jin is.

It's like torture. The constant switches from good treatment, to awful treatment. It reminded Jin of his awful childhood.

His father would constantly beat him, but then apologise to him and shower him with 'love' and expensive gifts.

His mother.. married his father for the money. If Seokjin told his mother what was happening, she'd brush it off and say he's lying for attention.

When his father found someone else, he left his mother. They lost all their money, they lost everything. They lived in a tiny house, and barely ate. His mother turned to drugs and alcohol, and would hit him.

Life was hell as a child, and it's all happening again.

Seokjin remembers the first time he tried to commit suicide. He was 14 years old, and he took an overdose of his mother's drugs. It didn't work, though.

He then tried the same when he was 18. Still didn't work. So now, he wants to commit suicide by sitting on the train track and just waiting for it to happen. That way he knows for sure he'll end it all.

An hour later, Jin decided to make himself a cup of hot chocolate. He sat on the couch, wrapped in a blanket and watched Netflix for a while. The door opened and Taehyung walked into the living room.

"Hyung..." He said. Jin looked at him, his cheek still stinging a little bit, but not as much.

"Jin-Hyung, I'm sorry. I really am! I won't do it again, I was angry... i... I didn't mean it."

That's what you always say.

"Oh... it's fine, Tae." Said Jin. "Great! Do you have work tomorrow?" Taehyung asked. Jin shook his head. "No, tomorrow is my day off. Why?" Jin asked.

"Well, me neither. I'm going out with my boyfriend Jungkook tomorrow, so you get the house to yourself. Anyway, I'm going to bed now. Night hyungieee~" Taehyung stood up and went to his room.

Alone time. Yay.

Seokjin got a notification.

Snapchat: Suga has added you as a friend!

Suga..? Who's that?

[Suga is typing...]

Suga: Hello.

Jinnie: Hello..? Who are you?

Suga: just call me Suga.

Jinnie: ok? why have you messaged me Suga?

Suga: because... well, I know who you are. You need help, Jin.

Jinnie: what do you mean? I'm fine.

Suga: liar. You are a liar Seokjin.

Jinnie: ....I don't understand.

Suga: please! Open your eyes! You're unhealthily skinny, I worry about  you. All you need to know is that I go to the same work as you, that's all you need to know right now. You'll find out who I am later on, but please... stop hurting yourself. I.. I love you. I want to kiss you, but I don't know how you feel about me.

Jinnie: I don't know how to react. Look, I'm fine ok? I appreciate the concern.

Suga: I know you have a day off tomorrow, so, message me. I'll be waiting for your message.

Jinnie: fine.

Suga: anyone ever tell you how damn cute you are?

Jinnie: no. nobody thinks that.

Suga: I do.

Jinnie: stop lying to me! I don't appreciate liars.

Suga: then you don't appreciate yourself.

Jinnie: exactly.

Suga: :O please appreciate yourself Jin :(

Jinnie: I... gtg.

Suga: ok... ;( take care of yourself. Please..?

Jinnie: ok, ok. Bye.

Suga: bye... <3

Jin closed Snapchat and turned off his phone. Suga is right, he is a liar. But, whatever. Seokjin is so curious to know who this Suga is... but, he decided to sleep.

-

I feel so bad for making Jinnie hate himself.. ifhhhgjeje

Anyway, I'm gonna sleep now. Byeeeee~~~~~

-yoonjinism