Bound and Broken

Broken Eighteen

Please.. Don't hurt yourself, Sabrina.

I walked towards the door. This is now or never. I need to get her out of there. I took a step back, raised my foot and kicked the door open.

The bathroom wasn't any different from her bedroom. Everything's a mess.

I looked around and saw shattered glass on the floor. My eyes grew wide as I saw that there was also a few drops of blood on the floor..

I can't seem to move.. What.. How.. Why.. Those questions kept bothering me every day and night.

Then I saw her.. Inside the shower room.. Crying real hard and... doing self harm. She's screaming under the cold shower.

I quickly grabbed a towel and went inside the shower. I wrapped the towel around her and hugged her, trying to stop her from hurting herself.

She's really cold and soaking wet. How long was she in here?

"Bitiwan mo ko!! Hindi ko na kaya!! Hayaan mo na lang ako, ayoko na!!!!" She kept fighting but I held her tight.

We were both at the corner of the shower room. Soaking wet. I just need to calm her down..

"Sabrina.. Stop it please.. I'm here okay?" She just shooked her head, pulled one hand away from my grip and started slapping and punching herself.

"Ayoko na!! Bakit ba paulit ulit na lang!! Sagad na sagad na ako!! Durog na durog na..." She just broke down.

"Tama na, Sab! Tama na!" I grabbed her hand and kissed it. I felt her slowly leaning onto me.

She did stop fighting but she didn't stop crying. I reached for the shower knob and switched it off.

"Hindi ko na kaya... paulit-ulit na lang... Lahat-lahat naaalala ko na naman... Ang sakit-sakit!" She cried.

For the first time in my life.. I didn't know what to do.. It's like I forgot how to do my own thing.

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It's already 23:34. She's already sleeping soundly on my bed. I sat beside her and stared down at her face. She looks so innocent.. So fragile.

Alam kong nakita ko ng nagkakanightmares siya at nagfi-freak out pero hindi ko alam na may mas hihigit pa pala doon.

She was so broken..

I slowly grabbed her hand and kissed it gently. It was covered in bandage. I think she used the glass to give herself small cuts on her hand and arm.

"Oh Sabrina.. What am I going to do with you?" I whispered softly.