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"Jeon Jungkook, what the fuck were you thinking?" His teeth grit his words to ash, and when I peered up through my lashes all I could see was a vexed Yoongi.

My head hung down, and tears fell from my eyes into my lap.

Why did I do it?

-

You know exactly why.

Taehyung's beautiful body laid beneath my own, his hands laced throughout my hair, taking gentle grabs at it to gather my attention. He panted beneath me softly, his voice but a low whisper as he whined into my shoulder.

"J-Jungkook I'm-"

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"You're close, Kook. You're damn close to ruining something I know you can't live without."

Yoongi's voice rung through my ears, and with each word, his voice became more of an echo. I couldn't handle any more of the pressure, any more words and I would implode.

What was I thinking?

-

"Shh," I cooed and pressed sweet kisses along his honeyed skin. His breath fanned against my ear and his lips brushed against my neck. With a few more thrusts and broken breaths, we fell beside each other.

"Oh fuck," he sighed, pressing his palms against his cheeks as he held his face between his fingers, "Jungkook I think I'm still in love with you-"

-

"I love you and Jimin, so, so much," I swallowed whatever spit was in my mouth and cleared my throat. It was the least I could do to keep myself from completely falling apart.

"I-I-" The words struggled to leave my mouth. Every time I went to form them, they felt fabricated. I knew that in my heart of hearts, I didn't mean what I was thinking.

I knew my mind was elsewhere.

"You what, Jungkook?" Yoongi glared toward me. He was like a coiled snake, ready to strike at any moment.

And I was the prey.

"I-I don't know. I'm so sorry..." With my lower lip tucked between my teeth, I held back all the sobs which threatened to rack my body senseless.

"You should go to Jimin. He needs you..."

"Namjoon and Jin will take care of him for the time being. I need a little while to figure this out."

Yoongi pinched the bridge of his nose and turned away before walking out the front door and closing it gently behind himself. The last thing I heard was a sniffle.

-
(Perspective change)

knock knock knock

Who could that be? It's like what...nine at night?

I bounced up from my spot on the sofa and trailed over quickly to the door. I peered through the peephole before smiling and flinging the door wide open.

"Yoon!" I laughed softly and embraced my best friend tightly. "How are you? Are you alright?"

Once I pulled away, I could see the tear stains down his cheeks. Immediately I frowned and brought the noirette inside. I made for him some warm tea, and even gave him some light snacks to replenish his energy with.

"Is it about earlier?" I whispered quietly. He nodded in response and I felt my lips knit together tightly.

"So...what fully happened? Word around the group is that he and Tae did some...y'know..., stuff?" I sat gently down beside him on the couch, careful not to make contact.

Yoongi nodded again before pushing his face into the bend of his arm, wiping his tears.

"They had sex, y-yeah. And it really caused a rift between all of us."

They did have sex?

The thought made my mind wander.

Did Taehyung even like me? Or does he just like me because I fill the void Jungkook left in him?

My throat went dry and my tongue felt callous. I coughed a little awkwardly and shuffled in my seat beside Yoongi.

"Are you okay? Is Jimin okay?"

"Jimin was ripped in half earlier. He stormed out of the apartment in a way I've never seen before. As for me? It doesn't really matter. I'll be fine. I'm just worried about my relationship."

Oh Yoongi. Did he really think he could lie to me saying he was okay? It'd be no different if I said I was okay right now, because to be honest, I'm not.

"Yoon I know you aren't okay. You should let me know how you feel. And when you're done, I'll tell you how I feel. Fair enough?"

I watched his expression soften as he reached out for the tea I made and sipped on it. He brushed his fringe from in front of his eyes and took a deep breath before beginning to tell me everything.

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"It was only supposed to be a kiss. I only consented for a kiss. I figured it would be enough for Jungkook to understand his feelings. I had no idea the two would fuck and then try and hide it. I just... I'm so disappointed. I feel lied to. I feel like this is my fault because I sort of was an enabler of it. I should've told Jimin, and gotten his permission for it to happen too-"

"Quit blaming yourself Yoon." My lips pursed together and my brows furrowed, "You didn't force Jungkook to do anything. You only told him he could kiss Tae, on the basis that it would help figure shit out. That was on Jungkook to go and have sex with Tae. Not to mention the fact that Tae isn't even fucking single-"

The room fell completely silent after my words. Maybe it wasn't the best time to reveal our relationship...

After a painstaking few moments of silence, Yoongi dropped his face into his hands and hunched over with a sigh.

"So you're dating?"

"Yes."

"So Taehyung basically did this shit behind your back?"

"Yeah..."

"What the fuck do we do now?"

I blinked in confusion and thought. What really was there to do?

"Fate will determine the consequences I guess." I shrugged and tossed an arm around Yoongi's shoulders.

"We just need to wait it out."