Chained by a promise (Editing)

It has been about one week since the incident at the beach. I never talked about it, nor have I ever brought it up. The thing is, I truly did care for Jax. Right now my mind is so confused, all I can think about is why did I ever let him in my life? How could I have been so stupid!

We had went back to the house, after I had to beg my brother to take me back. Every since we stepped foot back into the house, I have been locked up in my room. I refuse to talk to anyone right now, I even made Jax sleep on the couch. Haha!! I am so evil sometimes I scare myself....I have decided that if he ever tries to talk to me I would just through a book at him, and then shove him out of my room.

I even took avoiding him to an extreme. I only eat in my room, if I ever need to leave Jax has to be far away as possible. When ever I had to do anything I would make sure that he never gets to close to me. My brother had asked me so many times if I was alright, I just brushed it off each time.

I love my brother more than anything in the world, but somethings he just can know. When it was finally time for me to do go sleep, there was a knock at my door. I knew it could only be one of two people, my brother or Jax. I know for a fact that my brother is out with his friends tonight, so it must be Jax.

"What do you want!" I tried to sound as scary as possible, but I failed since I was also half asleep. Stupid me for wanting to go to sleep!!

"Can we talk?" I sighed, at least he was trying. "Sorry, but you will die if you come into my room!" I heard a sound on the other side of my door.

"Fine then, if you won't let me in then I will just sit here and talk. It has been a week since the beach, and all I want to tell you was what you saw." "I already know what I saw, you kissed a girl then tell her that you loved her!" "What would you care if I said that to someone!"

Why do I care? I care because I love you! Of course I can't tell him that, I am pretty sure even though he says he still likes me he is just playing with me. "I care, because I do care about you. You are my friend after all." I heard a small sigh come from the other side of the door. "Fine, I want you to know something though, what you saw was not what you think you saw. Since your not in the mood to listen to me, then I will leave you alone till you are. I do want you to know this for now, I could never care more about someone than I do for you."

I sat there speechless, I can't believe he just said that. At least now I know he does really care about me. I am really curious to what he has to say, but then again I don't really want to know.

I knew after that he had left, since there was nothing but silence. I looked down at my phone, and saw my home screen of my parents and I when I was eight years old. Sometimes I wished I was that young again.

Were you don't have to worry about boys, being depressed, were you actually enjoy school, and everyone likes you. Now all I do know is that high school bites, and not in the good way. One day your laughing with your friends, and family. Then the next day your wanting to disappear everyone in sight, and wishing that every guy in earth would just disappear. Man would that not be nice?

I wonder what it would be like if I never saw what I did, and if I actually listened to what he had to say. I probably would not even lisent any way, why should I? He hurt me more times then I could count, I always forgave him even though he done me wrong. After everything that he had to me, this for some reason hurts me more than anything. I do care about him, but maybe I care more than I should?

I should have just never let him in my life, and never trusted him again. I should have just walked away, and never spoke to him again. I decided to pick up my phone, and call my mom. I really wanted them to be home, manly because when they do get back they will make Jax leave, and they will hopefully calm me enough not to kill him!!