12 years

Once again, as I thought, Oscar did not say sorry. at this point, I'm kind of done hoping for a change. I gave up on Oscar as well as on Milo. I've given Oscar so many chances to save himself from getting into trouble but he's really just humiliating me. Milo was a whole different story it had been a week since we stopped talking to each other, now more than ever I'm feeling really judged every single time I walk into a damn room. kids these days can be really judgemental you've just got to remember that in life the only people who care you are you and your family. As soon as you walk out of your house nobody gives a damn about you. I learned that the hard way. To be honest, even though I'm upset with Milo, I would never wish for anything bad to happen to him and I'm always going to be there for him because at the end of the day we're all human and humans make mistakes. If Milo was to say sorry to me I would probably forgive him but it would take me a while to completely forgive him. Leo always tells me that the reason I get hurt so much is that I get too attached too quickly, I guess he's right but I don't know guess you could just say its complicated but just, in general, a sixth graders life is very complicated and stressful. I mean when you're a tween, things can get pretty hectic and chaotic when it comes to school. Boys start acting stupid, girls start acting petty, everyone thinks that being rude is okay and that talking about people is okay and everyone thinks that enable to be relevant you have to be popular but at this age, everyone is just young and dumb. I was glad to notice that when I lost Milo I lost him and him only nobody else decided to follow along with him. Can't help but think I have so many things wrong with me I mean I have anxiety/depression, OCD and easy panic and so much more so ad you can tell being a kid is stressful. Sometimes I wish school never existed but don't we all. we can all agree that we don't love school the most but as teachers and parents say its our job and we have to be responsible. I'm hoping I have better days to look forward to.