David Guetta-what I did for love
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Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart
-Haruki Murakami
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You wander through the whithered meadows of my mind each day ,lazily you graze each and every thought until I am all but consumed by you. Your movements are precise a practiced varient purposefully swaying my subconscious to images of you.
Your fingertips nudge at these wilted memories so far removed from what they once were theyve jaded, but I begrudgingly allow them forward,playing them over and over again against the backdrop of my very aware conscience, for the ghost that lurkes my subconscious .
Your footsteps putter through my mind . And I let myself to succumb to you .
Oh how the sweet torture of your memory imprisons me, steadly I fall into its gentle familiar ,comforting embrase, tenderly it smothers all the air from my lungs . Ive never felt so at home.
If I could turn the clock back .
To warn you .
If I could go back hold your hand and tell you how difficult your life would become.
If I could advise you about me ,if I could go back further and educate you about me ,about the crucial flaws in my character .
If I gave you the option to leave . Would you have taken it.
If I told you I was possessive .
And loley.
And advantages .
And sick .
Would you have left .
Please tell me if I'd done these things you would've .
You'd Look at me and run .
Saved yourself .
Could I have done this to spare you .
Possible, maybe, could your story have taken a different route .
Had I done the right things, would you still breathe the same air as me .
In another life ,with different choices would you have lived .
It wasn't meant to go that way.
It was me ,my fault ,I'll take all the responsibilities for it .
In another life ,if I just made a few different decisions ,you would still be here .
Just don't tell me that no matter what I do ,in any life I'd still have to go through the pain of losing you.
I'd survive not knowing you,never meeting you ,not recognising who I was seeing when I saw you.
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A LONELY Game (EDITING)
Teen Fiction"I hate you" I said finally. "Care to explain why". He replied cocking his head to the side , amused. "Yeah, you're arrogant and nasty and you hurt people's feelings on purpose, not because its entertaining to you . But because you know that if you...
